Today I read an article that one of my good friends who went for a uni's interview had to read.  

I love this snippet from the passage, and I agree with the author that we need more direction on how to develop our inner selfs (eulogy characteristics) than our working skills (resume virtues). It goes like this: 

"External ambitions are never satisfied because there’s always something more to achieve. 

Today was a pretty long and rough-towards-the-end day. But I learnt many lessons. More importantly, it strengthened my conviction that this world could be a better (in the non materialistic sense) place. 

Today, someone was upset with me because I used a wrong term in vocabulary which I thought made sense to me and sounded more polite- concede. To me, it's a word which means "yes, I agree with your point of view although i thought so differently before". I said, "okay I concede because idw to waste time traveling too." 

Alas, it offended the person. When I tried to clear the misunderstanding, explaining that I didn't know "concede" comes with negative connotations and further evidenced with the fact that I even used in my GP essays a few times, 

The person in an unfriendly manner (because I know him/her inside out) said "maybe that's why you didn't do well."

I agree, I didn't do well. I agree, I have poor grasp of my vocabulary. 

(I am actually q afraid to blog these days esp after leaving school, because idk what kind of wrong words I've been using in the past and will be using in future.)

But when I decided to take a step back from the quarrel, i decided that

Yes. I got a B for GP, when 50% of my JC and our friends over on the green pastures of bishan got A. 

I got B, by God's grace.

Call it self-denial for my shit (to some/most) results. But I don't ever want to become someone who gets A and ends up unintentionally saying such a thing to someone else in future. (But then, this person did not get A or B for GP, so maybe said incident/person isn't reflective of the A-graders.)

I understand this person probably said it out of anger with no ill intentions. And such a statement would probably just be brushed off by others. It's not that serious or mean. But i had been trying to catch arrows without letting them reach my core/heart for the past hour, and this small one slipped past by grasp into my heart. 

Cos I've recently been shot by accidental arrows, now I am learning to mind my words and my tongue so that i will hurt others less. I don't want anyone to ever feel what I felt today, and I won't stand by and watch, if i ever meet anyone who is made to feel the way I did.  

Nevertheless, I thank God today, cos I have learnt part of the many reasons for Him not giving me an A for GP/ stellar results. I imagine I would be walking around with my nose high in the air if I did better than I have done. Or I would be cloaked in superficiality as I walked around telling others how badly I did/reverse boasting. 

And I thank God, because it seems like He always prepares angels to catch me when I fall. My life is surrounded by so so many good people who love me even when I don't deserve them. From close friends to friends to elders (parents/teachers) who are always guiding me and going the extra mile to help me/spoiling me by consistently asking me to ask for more help. 

I may be out of my bubble of school life, and more exposed to harsh realities, but I have some of the best bolsters who are there for me to shield me from strong impacts. 

I'm glad that tonight I could ask for a hug at this hour when in my small puny circle of friends, i shdnt expect any to be around at this time. (And I think I haven't asked for any so directly in at least 3yesrs)

I have more than enough. (:

I'm not perfect, but I'll keep trying:

1. to be a better me, not anyone else.

2. to make this world a better place. 

Today I read an article that one of my good friends who went for a uni's interview had to read.  

I love this snippet from the passage, and I agree with the author that we need more direction on how to develop our inner selfs (eulogy characteristics) than our working skills (resume virtues). It goes like this: 

"External ambitions are never satisfied because there’s always something more to achieve. 

Today was a pretty long and rough-towards-the-end day. But I learnt many lessons. More importantly, it strengthened my conviction that this world could be a better (in the non materialistic sense) place. 

Today, someone was upset with me because I used a wrong term in vocabulary which I thought made sense to me and sounded more polite- concede. To me, it's a word which means "yes, I agree with your point of view although i thought so differently before". I said, "okay I concede because idw to waste time traveling too." 

Alas, it offended the person. When I tried to clear the misunderstanding, explaining that I didn't know "concede" comes with negative connotations and further evidenced with the fact that I even used in my GP essays a few times, 

The person in an unfriendly manner (because I know him/her inside out) said "maybe that's why you didn't do well."

I agree, I didn't do well. I agree, I have poor grasp of my vocabulary. 

(I am actually q afraid to blog these days esp after leaving school, because idk what kind of wrong words I've been using in the past and will be using in future.)

But when I decided to take a step back from the quarrel, i decided that

Yes. I got a B for GP, when 50% of my JC and our friends over on the green pastures of bishan got A. 

I got B, by God's grace.

Call it self-denial for my shit (to some/most) results. But I don't ever want to become someone who gets A and ends up unintentionally saying such a thing to someone else in future. (But then, this person did not get A or B for GP, so maybe said incident/person isn't reflective of the A-graders.)

I understand this person probably said it out of anger with no ill intentions. And such a statement would probably just be brushed off by others. It's not that serious or mean. But i had been trying to catch arrows without letting them reach my core/heart for the past hour, and this small one slipped past by grasp into my heart. 

Cos I've recently been shot by accidental arrows, now I am learning to mind my words and my tongue so that i will hurt others less. I don't want anyone to ever feel what I felt today, and I won't stand by and watch, if i ever meet anyone who is made to feel the way I did.  

Nevertheless, I thank God today, cos I have learnt part of the many reasons for Him not giving me an A for GP/ stellar results. I imagine I would be walking around with my nose high in the air if I did better than I have done. Or I would be cloaked in superficiality as I walked around telling others how badly I did/reverse boasting. 

And I thank God, because it seems like He always prepares angels to catch me when I fall. My life is surrounded by so so many good people who love me even when I don't deserve them. From close friends to friends to elders (parents/teachers) who are always guiding me and going the extra mile to help me/spoiling me by consistently asking me to ask for more help. 

I may be out of my bubble of school life, and more exposed to harsh realities, but I have some of the best bolsters who are there for me to shield me from strong impacts. 

I'm glad that tonight I could ask for a hug at this hour when in my small puny circle of friends, i shdnt expect any to be around at this time. (And I think I haven't asked for any so directly in at least 3yesrs)

I have more than enough. (:

I'm not perfect, but I'll keep trying:

1. to be a better me, not anyone else.

2. to make this world a better place.