This morning I felt much better and decided to bake Nutella-stuffed Nutella cookies! :D (first time trying) 

The looks turned out really disappointing because I couldn't figure out how to use hands (as instructed) to make a bottom layer of dough, add a scoop of refrigerated Nutella on top and then add another layer of dough again! My hands were literally filled w oil and I had to keep washing cos Nutella has a lot of oil ); 

I was glad that I made only one batch cos they looked like shit (actually this is the norm hahaha) but I felt like it's ok at least I made sth I'll still love em and eat myself. (Maybe that's how God was like with me hahahahahaha)

But plot twist moment when I tried one after avoiding/leaving it at the side for v long (/aft washing all the things) and it turned out really chewy and addictive (on a sn one of my students says that words like "nice" and "big" are lazy words) 

And I ended up eating 3 though sometimes I don't even eat any cos I want to give em away?? 

Haha actually part of me felt unconfident giving it away cos I scared ppl judge the looks but I decided to still give some away haha (now I feel like I seriously under-baked cos I only have 12 cookies to give away now )))-:) 

((excluding those reserved for my family)) 

(((I love brackets it's the best aid for not-so-confident ppl to voice their opinions yknow))) 

((((but I guess now I can get A+ for self-esteem class with this level of 自夸 heh))))

Yay so I just feel q happy hehe I hope I'll become somewhat like my cookies next time and make God and my parents proud even though I look completely like sh*t 

There's just this sense of satisfaction that I think everyone (my parents) deserves to feel at least once in their life for sth that they didn't do so badly in (: I'm happy that I felt it today after many years of not feeling so haha (':

Baby steps but I will work hard to become someone that the ppl who love me can be vv proud of! (-: and they can tell others like "hey this terrible person is my friend and she didn't use to be so cool but I stuck by her all the way till she became someone not so bad after all" HAHAHAHAHAHAHA for now lets just pray that the opposite won't happen xD 

This morning I felt much better and decided to bake Nutella-stuffed Nutella cookies! :D (first time trying) 

The looks turned out really disappointing because I couldn't figure out how to use hands (as instructed) to make a bottom layer of dough, add a scoop of refrigerated Nutella on top and then add another layer of dough again! My hands were literally filled w oil and I had to keep washing cos Nutella has a lot of oil ); 

I was glad that I made only one batch cos they looked like shit (actually this is the norm hahaha) but I felt like it's ok at least I made sth I'll still love em and eat myself. (Maybe that's how God was like with me hahahahahaha)

But plot twist moment when I tried one after avoiding/leaving it at the side for v long (/aft washing all the things) and it turned out really chewy and addictive (on a sn one of my students says that words like "nice" and "big" are lazy words) 

And I ended up eating 3 though sometimes I don't even eat any cos I want to give em away?? 

Haha actually part of me felt unconfident giving it away cos I scared ppl judge the looks but I decided to still give some away haha (now I feel like I seriously under-baked cos I only have 12 cookies to give away now )))-:) 

((excluding those reserved for my family)) 

(((I love brackets it's the best aid for not-so-confident ppl to voice their opinions yknow))) 

((((but I guess now I can get A+ for self-esteem class with this level of 自夸 heh))))

Yay so I just feel q happy hehe I hope I'll become somewhat like my cookies next time and make God and my parents proud even though I look completely like sh*t 

There's just this sense of satisfaction that I think everyone (my parents) deserves to feel at least once in their life for sth that they didn't do so badly in (: I'm happy that I felt it today after many years of not feeling so haha (':

Baby steps but I will work hard to become someone that the ppl who love me can be vv proud of! (-: and they can tell others like "hey this terrible person is my friend and she didn't use to be so cool but I stuck by her all the way till she became someone not so bad after all" HAHAHAHAHAHAHA for now lets just pray that the opposite won't happen xD