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7/6 pompeii

Saturday, June 7, 2014 | 6/07/2014 01:54:00 AM | 0 comments

It's 1.10am and I'm feeling completely exhausted

It's not people who make me angry that get me so tired

It's the people that I can't get angry over

Why do such things come my way when I'm overseas, physically away from burdens and mentally just about to shut down

It didn't feel one bit right-so propagated

And it's never going to

Idk how to solve it

Idek what to say or if I'm even supposed or allowed to say anything

I wish I could just let go of everything

Everything

Sometimes I feel that life would be easier if I didn't want to have anyone in my life at all, didn't care about any thing, didn't have anyone to care about me-heck, if I could just not want this life anymore.

The problem lies in the fact that I can't

And while millions are trying hard to fight for their lives in different parts of the world, i shouldn't be thinking of giving up on mine (look at me so well and fat having used up so much resources)

I feel like a terrible nuisance and spoilt brat for throwing such a huge tantrum here

But this thing called emotions has been like volcano lava that went from a stage of bubbling to escaping from the crater (I'm sorry I'm not a geog student) and rushing towards me

I'm tired of the complexities of human character and being unable to understand what people are doing and why they do what they do

I'm tired of being such an idiot, such a fool, nsuch a loser in this thing called friendship (or ships to sum up my whole life)

I don't know anything now

I can't tell who cares and who doesn't for most

I don't even want to know whether people Really care or don't Really care

Just care or Don't care.

Whattheheck forget it idew to know anything now

In this whole situation

The only person who would be able to understand me is you

But you don't exist anymore, and

Now, I am starting to wish you never did at all.

God help me