1. Feeling so so so so so hungryyyyyyy but it's so so so so late and I will die of fats if I eat now :/

Some negative feelings came back for the first time ytd. The whole day was a good day except when someone unintentionally blurted out something pretty nasty to me in my face. I mean, it wasn't exactly nasty cos it was just reality and reality is harsh. But idk why I felt like I was slapped in the face. Maybe because it was said in te face instead of over social media which I've realized is much easier to ignore.  

Anw, I guess I just have been ignoring reality and the fact that yeah I am fat and stuff and I was actually starting to believe the white lies that nice people have been telling me. I mean who am I trying to kid- i am fat and it's a fact and I should stop trying to hide from reality. The person who made that comment made me realize that even if people might not necessarily say it out/ are kind enough to overlook that fact, i AM fat and people do think about the fact that Well lwh is fat.

Lol so yeah maybe my friends can help me by not trying to kid me anymore so that I can accept reality better. 

And ytd it kinda came as a lash I guess because I randomly started feeling really helpless and sad over being fat even after trying for at least 10 years. I spent the rest of the day telling myself "you are stronger than one comment" repeatedly.

/Sudden feels like an oversensitive loser./

But anw point is. didn't eat dinner just now and I'm randomly feeling so hungry now that I feel like crying ugh hahaha actually I think it might just be my hormones at work cos The Time is approaching

2. I'm really grateful for the ones who put a smile on my face/made me laugh a lot ytd and today, esp ytd when I was feeling really sad and trying hard to laugh/smile. Thanks for being here, and for being so sweet or comical that yr actions made my day. Thanks to the parents, the helper, ks, low, zhu, qy, kang, boo, lily, barn, huix, hanz etc(: 

3. Quote of the day from the piano teacher: If you don't try to go loud, you will never be able to go loud with warmth.

4. I'm pretty screwed cos I wasted today sleeping 10+2 hours nap then dily-dallying before and after piano and then the gramps came and then BBI and helping the dad and BAM the day's over, I've not done much. 

Im going to be a realist and tell myself that it ywon't rlly be possible to do all that I need to do by tmr but I have to plan my own time nevertheless and try my best to clear the poop beneath my S now and stop procrastinating idek why I am but I know I am. Lwh wake up pull up your socks please get serious please wake up seriously and face the world face reality face your load of work if you can't cope now if you don't pull your socks up now you will never be able to the rest of this year. GOOOOOOOOOO.

1. Feeling so so so so so hungryyyyyyy but it's so so so so late and I will die of fats if I eat now :/

Some negative feelings came back for the first time ytd. The whole day was a good day except when someone unintentionally blurted out something pretty nasty to me in my face. I mean, it wasn't exactly nasty cos it was just reality and reality is harsh. But idk why I felt like I was slapped in the face. Maybe because it was said in te face instead of over social media which I've realized is much easier to ignore.  

Anw, I guess I just have been ignoring reality and the fact that yeah I am fat and stuff and I was actually starting to believe the white lies that nice people have been telling me. I mean who am I trying to kid- i am fat and it's a fact and I should stop trying to hide from reality. The person who made that comment made me realize that even if people might not necessarily say it out/ are kind enough to overlook that fact, i AM fat and people do think about the fact that Well lwh is fat.

Lol so yeah maybe my friends can help me by not trying to kid me anymore so that I can accept reality better. 

And ytd it kinda came as a lash I guess because I randomly started feeling really helpless and sad over being fat even after trying for at least 10 years. I spent the rest of the day telling myself "you are stronger than one comment" repeatedly.

/Sudden feels like an oversensitive loser./

But anw point is. didn't eat dinner just now and I'm randomly feeling so hungry now that I feel like crying ugh hahaha actually I think it might just be my hormones at work cos The Time is approaching

2. I'm really grateful for the ones who put a smile on my face/made me laugh a lot ytd and today, esp ytd when I was feeling really sad and trying hard to laugh/smile. Thanks for being here, and for being so sweet or comical that yr actions made my day. Thanks to the parents, the helper, ks, low, zhu, qy, kang, boo, lily, barn, huix, hanz etc(: 

3. Quote of the day from the piano teacher: If you don't try to go loud, you will never be able to go loud with warmth.

4. I'm pretty screwed cos I wasted today sleeping 10+2 hours nap then dily-dallying before and after piano and then the gramps came and then BBI and helping the dad and BAM the day's over, I've not done much. 

Im going to be a realist and tell myself that it ywon't rlly be possible to do all that I need to do by tmr but I have to plan my own time nevertheless and try my best to clear the poop beneath my S now and stop procrastinating idek why I am but I know I am. Lwh wake up pull up your socks please get serious please wake up seriously and face the world face reality face your load of work if you can't cope now if you don't pull your socks up now you will never be able to the rest of this year. GOOOOOOOOOO.