Thank you those who were here today!

I'm really touched (-: 

Thank you for the simple text greeting, a smile, or a real greeting when we met! It made me feel happy, special, and of worth.

Special thanks to the people who wrote cards, gave gifts (or/and) planned surprises for me hehe thank you guys smuch for the effort, time spent, $$ and everyth!

I opened every gift slowly after I came home from cny celeb and felt truly overwhelmed.

Tbh, my favourite gifts are letters hehehe

Cos they will stay the same/remain unchanged even if in the future things change. (I secretly keep all the letters I received since...p6? And I still read all of them every now and then.)

I love the feeling of opening a letter and seeing many words and slowly reading through every word knowing each one is meant for me. Handwritten letters make me feel like the people who wrote them really mean every word they say, and it is reassurance for me that they care.

Actually, i love gifts/pleasant surprises too, but I feel that in terms of materialistic goods, I alr have everything I need so they don't necessarily make me as happy as the thoughts/intangible things can. 

Anyway, thank you everyone who made me feel loved today ahahahaha I'm not good with my words (you should be able to tell by now even if this is e first post here that you're reading) but yupppz.

I am touched by your presence alr (:

Unexpectedly, some ppl who I was hoping/expecting(?) would be here werent here today, and as an emotional person, I would be lying if I said that I'm not affected. 

Okay I'm sorry i think i will sound like a really really ungrateful/uncontent person but let me just get this out of my system: none of the bethelites/supposed childhood friends said anyth except the childhood b.f who sent a text. And then next time I go back (sadly it's tmr) they'll be like "come back don't go other places alr we love you we want you here" hahaha I feel dam loved and the urge to be fake with them.

Actually heh, none of my family members got me anything this year too. (But I'm grateful that all of em are here at least and healthy and..here) And one of my remaining "closest" friends was just completely cold/dao today idek what I did wrong hahaha xD

I'm trying hard to do that right now. Like reallly trying hard this moment. And I'm also trying hard to believe what she said bout me being better because she is a sincere/honest person and has no reason to lie to me, yet it isn't really easy with things like that happening haha.  

-Hx, first text at 12am (: and for keeping me company/making me laugh smuch today (: 

-Kc, cos after everything our friendship has been through, she still was one of the first few to text me. Honestly, I was touched. 

-Rooster, for not having ignored me in the firs place hahaha 

-Gummying, for a rlly long letter and birthday edition Olaf (-:

-Hh, for a simply touching letter (:

-adleK, for being honest right from the start haha I appreciate it a lot! 

-Yepmam, for the surprise and all the love  (I felt really loved)

-Lily, for the bassoon keychain and pretty/super successful piglet! (I love them so much; you're amazing!) 

-Be more decisive a person and be able to make up my own mind/know what I want

-Find a purpose for my existence  

I think I've seen who the ones who care are. 

I think the 3 closest friends I had in 2013 have as of/by today, all left. 

1. Imysm. Iwywh.

2. Is it finally time to say goodbye to you too?

 

Maybe it's time to retreat within the walls again and clean up my life a bit. And if any of you can understand any part of my life rn, please do me a favour and enlighten me heh thanks. 

Thank you those who were here today!

I'm really touched (-: 

Thank you for the simple text greeting, a smile, or a real greeting when we met! It made me feel happy, special, and of worth.

Special thanks to the people who wrote cards, gave gifts (or/and) planned surprises for me hehe thank you guys smuch for the effort, time spent, $$ and everyth!

I opened every gift slowly after I came home from cny celeb and felt truly overwhelmed.

Tbh, my favourite gifts are letters hehehe

Cos they will stay the same/remain unchanged even if in the future things change. (I secretly keep all the letters I received since...p6? And I still read all of them every now and then.)

I love the feeling of opening a letter and seeing many words and slowly reading through every word knowing each one is meant for me. Handwritten letters make me feel like the people who wrote them really mean every word they say, and it is reassurance for me that they care.

Actually, i love gifts/pleasant surprises too, but I feel that in terms of materialistic goods, I alr have everything I need so they don't necessarily make me as happy as the thoughts/intangible things can. 

Anyway, thank you everyone who made me feel loved today ahahahaha I'm not good with my words (you should be able to tell by now even if this is e first post here that you're reading) but yupppz.

I am touched by your presence alr (:

Unexpectedly, some ppl who I was hoping/expecting(?) would be here werent here today, and as an emotional person, I would be lying if I said that I'm not affected. 

Okay I'm sorry i think i will sound like a really really ungrateful/uncontent person but let me just get this out of my system: none of the bethelites/supposed childhood friends said anyth except the childhood b.f who sent a text. And then next time I go back (sadly it's tmr) they'll be like "come back don't go other places alr we love you we want you here" hahaha I feel dam loved and the urge to be fake with them.

Actually heh, none of my family members got me anything this year too. (But I'm grateful that all of em are here at least and healthy and..here) And one of my remaining "closest" friends was just completely cold/dao today idek what I did wrong hahaha xD

I'm trying hard to do that right now. Like reallly trying hard this moment. And I'm also trying hard to believe what she said bout me being better because she is a sincere/honest person and has no reason to lie to me, yet it isn't really easy with things like that happening haha.  

-Hx, first text at 12am (: and for keeping me company/making me laugh smuch today (: 

-Kc, cos after everything our friendship has been through, she still was one of the first few to text me. Honestly, I was touched. 

-Rooster, for not having ignored me in the firs place hahaha 

-Gummying, for a rlly long letter and birthday edition Olaf (-:

-Hh, for a simply touching letter (:

-adleK, for being honest right from the start haha I appreciate it a lot! 

-Yepmam, for the surprise and all the love  (I felt really loved)

-Lily, for the bassoon keychain and pretty/super successful piglet! (I love them so much; you're amazing!) 

-Be more decisive a person and be able to make up my own mind/know what I want

-Find a purpose for my existence  

I think I've seen who the ones who care are. 

I think the 3 closest friends I had in 2013 have as of/by today, all left. 

1. Imysm. Iwywh.

2. Is it finally time to say goodbye to you too?

 

Maybe it's time to retreat within the walls again and clean up my life a bit. And if any of you can understand any part of my life rn, please do me a favour and enlighten me heh thanks.