Yesterdayyyyyyy, 

We had training at hccccc

In the rainnnnnnn 

For 3 hoursssss heh

It was quite fun but abit intense and idk why I felt quite lost throughout lol the seniors weren't really guiding me ytd 

And Kelda and I were in diff teams

And in each team there are only 2 girls

Luckily I was on same team as Emily :p but we didn't say a word to each

other heh /awkward much/

After training and being drenched, everyone headed to the vice captain's house for Christmas celebration and I went home to shower cos I felt too sticky and my shoes were this time not so muddy but Camouflaged with Green Leaves /sways e leaves/

And I was going to taka so I decided to go home first hehheh

(Luckily I did, or id have fallen more sick than I did ytd xp)

Went to taka to meet hazel and cjj and got lost at orchard mrt (I didn't know which exit to go to etc) and had to call my mom for help hahaha but all was well after we met

Had a super enjoyable time catching up! Maybe cos too long never meet or idk what, the convo kept going on and we could talk about all sorts of things and it felt pretty nice cos well I haven't met old friends in a really long time 

Hazel was dam funny I kept laughing out loud cos of her XD

And they gave me presents which I'm really excited to open at midnight tnite!(: (there aren't many presents that I get excited to open during Christmas after so many years of existing lol)

I'll take pic later hehehehe

Btw my phone cover is also from em (-:

Anw Cjj sent me home and we were listening to Frozen soundtracks in the car and I felt quite happy hehe 

Then I came home and was sick/throwing up for e rest of e night heh lol but I eventually woke up at about 10+ and watched 2 eps of CSI w dad until 12 

Today I woke up at 7.45 to make breakfast for my dad because we made a deal and he who has to work also quite poor thing so I made 3 pieces of bread and went back to sleep afterwards till 10

Then my mom was washing clothes when i woke up (wow this is an image that is pretty unbelievable) and I helped Ben to fold clothes then ate bf then washed all the dishes fr ytd to today then cleaned e dining table and kept more clothes 

Yes we're all doing housework and I feel pretty proud of myself and my quality of work I think with the exception of sweeping floor (it requires a higher level of physics knowledge than I actually have) I can do housework pretty well XD have I mentioned that Kwan said I could open a cleaning company hahaha with my shiny sparkly windows :D 

So things have been pretty disoriented these few days for our family. Not in the sense that things are messy and stuff but we're all not really used to having to do household chores and trying (dam) hard to keep our house clean and tidy (enough).

For me, it's knowing that there's no one to keep my things for me and taking that extra step to clean up after myself. I guess my helper going home can be seen as a good thing too because I've realized how messy and careless I can be  and how much my helper has been cleaning up after my own mess. 

I used to proudly say that I bring my dishes to the sink cos my siblings don't do that but I've suddenly realized that I don't even make my own bed. And idk why this didn't dawn on me in china when I had to make my own bed for 2months but yeah 

Okay I guess I'm pretty spoilt but I'm learningggggggg and tryingggggg 

Yep so I will learn to clean up after my own mess more now because I hate havin to clean up after others' shit and idw others to have to do that for me so much anymore 

Which brings me to te point that if you know my sister personally, she seems like an Angel and super helpful super responsible super able person when she's outside (/social work major) but she's really just a freeloader (ie I'm kinda PO w her but okay I shall not reveal her terrible pig habits)

Gonna go out later to buy Christmas gifts for the parents HEHEHE I finally thought of what to give them while drifting in and out of sleep last night 

I cnnt afford branded bags or what for em but I hope what I give is of practical use and they'll like it!(: 

Not intending to give any other gifts to other ppl because I have no friends

Ps I am totally dreading service tonight lol not the meeting-God part but the social part lol I have no idea why my home church has become such a place for me but okay bye someone please pray I won't die of sadness and loneliness tonight and I will remember God God God that's the whole point of church and Christmas NOT PEOPLE.

Pps this made me smile (-:

4.50pm

Xian

I wonder why I must make myself go through this on a happy occasion and make myself feel so stressed and dready 

I tell myself it's for my family and my parents

But at the end of the day I don't know

Idk why I'm so sick of this place and why I dread it so much

I dont want to be here

I don't even mind spending Christmas Eve alone at home watching movies on channel 5- I really don't 

I just hope I will not cry tonight for any reason 

Suddenly feel so sick and tired after a rather happy morning and afternoon 

If only I could just sleep in the car the whole night 

Sigh hahaha I shall try to stop worrying and start praying 

It's 11.41pm I'm excited to open my gifts! (:  

Okay that's it I Just wanted to say that I feel much better and thank God for letting me have my childhood b.f to myself 85% of the whole of tonight hehehehe I'm pretty happy (:

Pianist @ youth service for her this Sunday kekeke okay anw my hypocount just dropped to 3.5 idk why shall go watch movie and find some non-fat sweet food (-: 

Yesterdayyyyyyy, 

We had training at hccccc

In the rainnnnnnn 

For 3 hoursssss heh

It was quite fun but abit intense and idk why I felt quite lost throughout lol the seniors weren't really guiding me ytd 

And Kelda and I were in diff teams

And in each team there are only 2 girls

Luckily I was on same team as Emily :p but we didn't say a word to each

other heh /awkward much/

After training and being drenched, everyone headed to the vice captain's house for Christmas celebration and I went home to shower cos I felt too sticky and my shoes were this time not so muddy but Camouflaged with Green Leaves /sways e leaves/

And I was going to taka so I decided to go home first hehheh

(Luckily I did, or id have fallen more sick than I did ytd xp)

Went to taka to meet hazel and cjj and got lost at orchard mrt (I didn't know which exit to go to etc) and had to call my mom for help hahaha but all was well after we met

Had a super enjoyable time catching up! Maybe cos too long never meet or idk what, the convo kept going on and we could talk about all sorts of things and it felt pretty nice cos well I haven't met old friends in a really long time 

Hazel was dam funny I kept laughing out loud cos of her XD

And they gave me presents which I'm really excited to open at midnight tnite!(: (there aren't many presents that I get excited to open during Christmas after so many years of existing lol)

I'll take pic later hehehehe

Btw my phone cover is also from em (-:

Anw Cjj sent me home and we were listening to Frozen soundtracks in the car and I felt quite happy hehe 

Then I came home and was sick/throwing up for e rest of e night heh lol but I eventually woke up at about 10+ and watched 2 eps of CSI w dad until 12 

Today I woke up at 7.45 to make breakfast for my dad because we made a deal and he who has to work also quite poor thing so I made 3 pieces of bread and went back to sleep afterwards till 10

Then my mom was washing clothes when i woke up (wow this is an image that is pretty unbelievable) and I helped Ben to fold clothes then ate bf then washed all the dishes fr ytd to today then cleaned e dining table and kept more clothes 

Yes we're all doing housework and I feel pretty proud of myself and my quality of work I think with the exception of sweeping floor (it requires a higher level of physics knowledge than I actually have) I can do housework pretty well XD have I mentioned that Kwan said I could open a cleaning company hahaha with my shiny sparkly windows :D 

So things have been pretty disoriented these few days for our family. Not in the sense that things are messy and stuff but we're all not really used to having to do household chores and trying (dam) hard to keep our house clean and tidy (enough).

For me, it's knowing that there's no one to keep my things for me and taking that extra step to clean up after myself. I guess my helper going home can be seen as a good thing too because I've realized how messy and careless I can be  and how much my helper has been cleaning up after my own mess. 

I used to proudly say that I bring my dishes to the sink cos my siblings don't do that but I've suddenly realized that I don't even make my own bed. And idk why this didn't dawn on me in china when I had to make my own bed for 2months but yeah 

Okay I guess I'm pretty spoilt but I'm learningggggggg and tryingggggg 

Yep so I will learn to clean up after my own mess more now because I hate havin to clean up after others' shit and idw others to have to do that for me so much anymore 

Which brings me to te point that if you know my sister personally, she seems like an Angel and super helpful super responsible super able person when she's outside (/social work major) but she's really just a freeloader (ie I'm kinda PO w her but okay I shall not reveal her terrible pig habits)

Gonna go out later to buy Christmas gifts for the parents HEHEHE I finally thought of what to give them while drifting in and out of sleep last night 

I cnnt afford branded bags or what for em but I hope what I give is of practical use and they'll like it!(: 

Not intending to give any other gifts to other ppl because I have no friends

Ps I am totally dreading service tonight lol not the meeting-God part but the social part lol I have no idea why my home church has become such a place for me but okay bye someone please pray I won't die of sadness and loneliness tonight and I will remember God God God that's the whole point of church and Christmas NOT PEOPLE.

Pps this made me smile (-:

4.50pm

Xian

I wonder why I must make myself go through this on a happy occasion and make myself feel so stressed and dready 

I tell myself it's for my family and my parents

But at the end of the day I don't know

Idk why I'm so sick of this place and why I dread it so much

I dont want to be here

I don't even mind spending Christmas Eve alone at home watching movies on channel 5- I really don't 

I just hope I will not cry tonight for any reason 

Suddenly feel so sick and tired after a rather happy morning and afternoon 

If only I could just sleep in the car the whole night 

Sigh hahaha I shall try to stop worrying and start praying 

It's 11.41pm I'm excited to open my gifts! (:  

Okay that's it I Just wanted to say that I feel much better and thank God for letting me have my childhood b.f to myself 85% of the whole of tonight hehehehe I'm pretty happy (:

Pianist @ youth service for her this Sunday kekeke okay anw my hypocount just dropped to 3.5 idk why shall go watch movie and find some non-fat sweet food (-: