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Thursday, August 8, 2013 | 8/08/2013 09:42:00 AM | 0 comments

R9.49am:

There are a lot of things I want(ed) to say

But forget it

I decided to stop this mindset of having to fight for attention

If I'm important enough there will be time for me set aside w/o me doing anything

If I'm not I'll get the hint

Then prolly leave cos my skin isn't that thick though I'm so fat

Shall just wait and observe a while more

-the first decision made in days

Yesterday at the soup spoon Royanne was doing a bit of palmistry and she said if there's a line on your right palm that stops right below your middle finger it means that you're stubborn when it comes to love

-maybe I have been. But idw to be anymore.

10.49pm:

Sorry to the 2 people that I have been extremelyserious with today

It was awkward

And serious

But I need answers so I'm sorry

It was frightening cos I kinda just said out emotions without masking them with words

Sigh

I'm sorry

It's not that I'm trying to find problems out of nothing but

I'm trying to refirm/rebuild foundations

And idw to push people away just to see their reactions/whether they'd stay Cos that's not showing trust to ppl and it's testing friends/ships like who does that

ToDay has been a boring day

I basically took strong meds in the morn that's still making me feel oozy Now

Slept 2/3 of the day away

Watched parts of 7eps of boys over flowers w mom in between my sleep

Played minion rush

Ate

Showered

Breathed

You get it.

But still id have been toO sick to go out anyway so I shall thank God that I got to rest at home w/o plans

And thank god I'm sick today not ytd

I wouldn't have survived all the aching joints, aching face muscles/joints, on & off fever, body ache, back/spine ache