17/8
Saturday, August 17, 2013 | 8/17/2013 11:03:00 AM | 0 comments
10.55am:
5 quick minsSudden feels blessed to have the b.f. around
Finally told someone about it and I feel a bit better
And I decided that there's no use worrying so I prolly should stop and just continue to face life like I have been
There's feeling bitter but I can still choose to feel grateful for at least being alive
I shan't care until then
I shall concentrate and press on until the end of eoys
And I will not make others worry
I was afraid to even tell anyone,
But I guess b.f. just is the b.f.
And I'm grateful for her (:
The days ahead may not be the brightest
But I have God, the b.f., the family, not many but enough friends And this group of people who care enough to read this crazyplace
/
1.05am:
#np Insane- BTOB
(the piano, violin and drums go so well together)
Need to learn to stop letting the health/discomfort affect the moods
Need to stop getting angst/moody randomly and pushing people away
This whole week has been spent sleeping other than finishing homework
The revisions for eoys so far have been /feeble laughs/
Since so much sleep this week is still unable to help w recovery I should stop sleeping so much
Really wanna ask Why
Why now
But so what if there's an answer
Guess I just have to learn to accept haha
Tired
But what have I accomplished to give me the right to even say this word out
Need to learn to be more resilient
Lwha you're a freaking lousy weakling
Pull up your socks
Haha all this crap haha shall roll off to lalaland
/
And you were saying?
Meaningless words
I'm so sick of hearing them
Just stop crapping and go.
/
Hey goddd
I think I'm in need of a few things-
Strength, serenity, motivation, resilience, comfort, determination and assurance
But I need You the most right now.
