i was thinking of allllllllllll the things i wanted to blog today
happy things
angst things
sad things
scary things
many things

i wanted to blog about how i felt like opening up my blog immediately because i remembered why my blog title was my blog title, why it was in CAPS, and why it was with a crown, not a lump of poop. and i wanted to blog about what i would do after i reopened my blog to let people know discretely that i reopened my blog

i wanted to blog about how stressted/shocked/not-in-state i felt the whole morning cos of the last-min notification of conducting which i wasn't prepared for nor wanted to do (ask me to elaborate if you want cos im lazy to do it here) and PE where matches with points were so competitive and stressful i couldn't enjoy myself one moment and how much i hate competition

i wanted to blog about recess with yijie and how everything was so comfy and felt so much better after intensity and the level of over-seriousness that made me dam stressed and the level of stress that made me dam serious

i wanted to blog about the world

i wanted to blog about how happy i felt over everything and how peaceful i felt over many things, thanks to God, and how i'd like to stay this way every day, thankful of everything, happy and satisfied with everything, even after the world crashes down on my when reality/results come back



i wanted to blog about me and my obsession with guitar and how my dream has finally come true although i only know like 5 or 6 chords and my strumming sucks to the point where my helper can strum better than me and i wanted to tell everyone about my new plans for the next instrument i wanna conquer, an instrument that has always plucked my heart because of how well it goes with the piano.
anyone wanna guess? it can be heard distinctly in Greyson Chance's Hold On Till the Night, Taylor Swift's Haunted and Leona Lewis' I Got you.
the few songs that have been recurring in my head these few days.


i wanted to blog about how i felt so uncertain about certain ships, or ex-ships. about my feelings, about facts, about reality.
i wanted to blog about certain sure ships, how i just randomly miss some people, how i have so many things to say to them, but words just fail me; or i fail words. and how i know, that i still wanna admit that i miss them, though i know i might not be missed, thought of, or cared for at all.

sooooooo many things, but then i ended up with only one thought.

(Content deleted)


im not sure if my current state of calmness is normal.
recently i've been like that hahaha near times when everything seems to be breaking down, falling apart, im suddenly calm, tearless and fearless.
and then when there's not enough reason to start breaking down, that's when i start.
that's putting things bluntly; i realised after reading Y's blog,
1. how well other people Write. this subtle-ty thing isn't about being frank or being mysterious; maybe it is, maybe i am just like that- this frank. but i think that the main thing is the language command.
hahaha put in Adeline-terms, its "your english and writing style sucks as much as the distance between the two ends of earth."

welllllllllllllllll.
i suck and we know it!
yay lets make that a quality of mine shall i,
because i dont like to deceive myself or anyone, what i am not and what i am.
here's to 3am tomorrow, may it be a success to screwedkid97


拥抱，是国际表达爱的方式
因为有时候，话语表达不出自己的心思意念 。
拥抱，是两人之间的事，
当一个人要个拥抱时，
有时候，那个似乎过度依赖你的人，
或许也只是希望能够回你点什么
那，就是我的关怀方式。

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站在大海边 才发现自己是多渺小登上最高山 才发现天有多高浩瀚的宇宙中 我真的微不足道像灰尘 消失也没人知道夜空的星星 彷佛在对着我微微笑轻声告诉我 一切他都看见了我所有挣扎 所有软弱和跌倒将成为主恩典的记号当我呼求 耶稣听见我的祷告千万人中 他竟关心我的需要走过的路 有欢笑有泪水都留下 主恩典的记号在风雨中 耶稣将我紧紧拥抱我深知道 他是我永远的依靠走过的路 有欢笑有泪水将成为 主恩典的记号

#恩典的记号-盛晓玫

恩典的记号


(Unrelated but.)
To my future best friend/
close friends right now




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an average 14-year old;
Wishes come true on 30 Jan;
Taonannite 2006-2009, BiCEPer 2007-2009, NYgirl 2010-2011;
adeline30197@hotmail.com.

Wants.
God. True Friends. Family. Love. Care. Health. Happiness. Simplicity. Peace. Everything to be okay.

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i was thinking of allllllllllll the things i wanted to blog today
happy things
angst things
sad things
scary things
many things

i wanted to blog about how i felt like opening up my blog immediately because i remembered why my blog title was my blog title, why it was in CAPS, and why it was with a crown, not a lump of poop. and i wanted to blog about what i would do after i reopened my blog to let people know discretely that i reopened my blog

i wanted to blog about how stressted/shocked/not-in-state i felt the whole morning cos of the last-min notification of conducting which i wasn't prepared for nor wanted to do (ask me to elaborate if you want cos im lazy to do it here) and PE where matches with points were so competitive and stressful i couldn't enjoy myself one moment and how much i hate competition

i wanted to blog about recess with yijie and how everything was so comfy and felt so much better after intensity and the level of over-seriousness that made me dam stressed and the level of stress that made me dam serious

i wanted to blog about the world

i wanted to blog about how happy i felt over everything and how peaceful i felt over many things, thanks to God, and how i'd like to stay this way every day, thankful of everything, happy and satisfied with everything, even after the world crashes down on my when reality/results come back



i wanted to blog about me and my obsession with guitar and how my dream has finally come true although i only know like 5 or 6 chords and my strumming sucks to the point where my helper can strum better than me and i wanted to tell everyone about my new plans for the next instrument i wanna conquer, an instrument that has always plucked my heart because of how well it goes with the piano.
anyone wanna guess? it can be heard distinctly in Greyson Chance's Hold On Till the Night, Taylor Swift's Haunted and Leona Lewis' I Got you.
the few songs that have been recurring in my head these few days.


i wanted to blog about how i felt so uncertain about certain ships, or ex-ships. about my feelings, about facts, about reality.
i wanted to blog about certain sure ships, how i just randomly miss some people, how i have so many things to say to them, but words just fail me; or i fail words. and how i know, that i still wanna admit that i miss them, though i know i might not be missed, thought of, or cared for at all.

sooooooo many things, but then i ended up with only one thought.

(Content deleted)


im not sure if my current state of calmness is normal.
recently i've been like that hahaha near times when everything seems to be breaking down, falling apart, im suddenly calm, tearless and fearless.
and then when there's not enough reason to start breaking down, that's when i start.
that's putting things bluntly; i realised after reading Y's blog,
1. how well other people Write. this subtle-ty thing isn't about being frank or being mysterious; maybe it is, maybe i am just like that- this frank. but i think that the main thing is the language command.
hahaha put in Adeline-terms, its "your english and writing style sucks as much as the distance between the two ends of earth."

welllllllllllllllll.
i suck and we know it!
yay lets make that a quality of mine shall i,
because i dont like to deceive myself or anyone, what i am not and what i am.
here's to 3am tomorrow, may it be a success to screwedkid97


拥抱，是国际表达爱的方式
因为有时候，话语表达不出自己的心思意念 。
拥抱，是两人之间的事，
当一个人要个拥抱时，
有时候，那个似乎过度依赖你的人，
或许也只是希望能够回你点什么
那，就是我的关怀方式。

-------------------

站在大海边 才发现自己是多渺小登上最高山 才发现天有多高浩瀚的宇宙中 我真的微不足道像灰尘 消失也没人知道夜空的星星 彷佛在对着我微微笑轻声告诉我 一切他都看见了我所有挣扎 所有软弱和跌倒将成为主恩典的记号当我呼求 耶稣听见我的祷告千万人中 他竟关心我的需要走过的路 有欢笑有泪水都留下 主恩典的记号在风雨中 耶稣将我紧紧拥抱我深知道 他是我永远的依靠走过的路 有欢笑有泪水将成为 主恩典的记号

#恩典的记号-盛晓玫

恩典的记号


(Unrelated but.)
To my future best friend/
close friends right now




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