Wow.
Really.
Haha.
I survived this week.
It flew in a blink of e eye.
It sucked really badly.
It's over.
It ended well. Some parts.
The math quiz that I thought I would die for ended up pulling up my previous quiz' marks which in terms of marks isn't too far away but anw both quizzes now give me an average of b3 and I was like PHEW.

Well if you were to say I am too shallow in my goals, I'm sorry to tell you that as much as I am aiming for 1.5 for Eoy, I can't fly from a 2._ to 1.5 so fast and although these are still puny baby steps but I am already working hard. I think.
And believe it or not for every single quiz this year, I studied with my own sweat and blood and tears and I didn't rely a single bit on my dearest mother.
Well I'm not hoping for some grand applause and a red carpet leading to a Awards stage but.
I hope people understanddddddd sigh.
And bio ooooh bio.
I was so discouraged from what I heard in the morning but I continued studying hard for the quiz!!! And afterwards Chellie told me she marked I got 10/10 and I was like ahdoanalanalsnakznakskanaksnakanam. but still need ms Chee to check she's 5ever deductin marks from me.
But hey guys look- my first quiz was a 3. My second was a 7. OMG I HOPE I CAN GET 10.
Newfound motivation to study really really really hard!!!!!!
I brought so many subjects/things (incl a bassoon) home cus I was determined to make this weekend productive after only scraping by the week, completing only the tasks due this week and not doing anything else.
I was determined to finish all my hw and start revising for block tests!
I was/am determined to prove to me myself and I that YES my hard work will pay off my waking up at 3+ nearly everyday this week will pay off and prove to the world that NO I am not where I am because of brains but because of every tear, sweat, emotion, and bit of glucose that I freaking put in.
Wow sounding ambitious huh.

Guess what I did tonight-watch clif2. x(
Sigh I really need to be productive this weekend.
Practice hard for bassoon- it's 18 days left officially!!!!!!
Graces is next next week and next week is the last school week and we're havin 2 quizzes and I Must work hard and do well for them especially math so as to pull my grades up and I should try to get another 10/10 for Chem cus the feeling is just too thrilling!
And then SYF's after hols and block test schedule just came out so I must start my revisions sooooooooon.

And my Sis got back her A level results today and although my parents lamented for the past 1000months about how she would have to retake her As, she did quite well/well enough to go to NUS (the course that she wants) and WHOOOOSH I'm quite proud of her yay! EXCEPT now I feel so stressed cus I'm scared I wont be able to make it to HC much less CLEAR MY As T^T

And batch meeting was so hilarious I kept laughing the whole time although we were talking about oh-so-serious stuff but esp people like Lynette she's so hilarious every time she spoke I laughed and she should be a comedian.
But yeah other than meeting about proper stuff, I'm awkward w batch13 like now and 5eva I think. If I wasn't in comm I wouldn't even have gotten involved w any batch stuff lol.
Thankfully I have my batch-section-class mate Evelyn yay and although she's really quiet and she's now more known to me as Evil-lyn but at least I have someone there for me whoop!

And my evening-night actually went down a little cus of...some stuff but yeah. All's still well, I'm not Too sick and my eyes are red but I still see and I have a lot of work to do and my heart/chest has been hurting like shit these few days but I AM ALIVE.
I just felt abit sad because I thought of some stuff/ some people.
Like how I get really sick of caring somedays cus of e high level of insecurity present in me, worrying that the more I care the less the other person would. Or when people start going hot and cold and hot and cold so often that I get so scared that all I wanna do is run away already.
But i decided that I shouldn't think so far away.. And maybe just learn to be like others to only think about things when they come... And maybe just live in the moment.... And if things really do go wrong again, and people leave like how I hate for them to.................I flinch at the thought of what I ended up as in the past but I cross fingers that no matter what I can be strong enough to face whatever damage comes again this time round.
So I'm just gonna bite the bullet and hope for the best.

I'm really a possessive person, I'm unsecured, buggy/annoying, and I'm really easily affected/attached/hurt. I'm a lousy friend to have, much less a close one if that's what anyone's looking for. But I hope that one day, I could get a true friend, or even a best friend that I've always wished for, who would make me feel like I don't actually have to worry about being me, being all those, because the person would make me feel so secured in our ship..That i could just jump off the ship, knowing I'd be caught back up onto the ship using a life buoy by e other sailor. that I wouldn't have to feel scared, about anything anymore.

"Be perfectly imperfect, not imperfectly perfect." -a friend, 2011.








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Wow.
Really.
Haha.
I survived this week.
It flew in a blink of e eye.
It sucked really badly.
It's over.
It ended well. Some parts.
The math quiz that I thought I would die for ended up pulling up my previous quiz' marks which in terms of marks isn't too far away but anw both quizzes now give me an average of b3 and I was like PHEW.

Well if you were to say I am too shallow in my goals, I'm sorry to tell you that as much as I am aiming for 1.5 for Eoy, I can't fly from a 2._ to 1.5 so fast and although these are still puny baby steps but I am already working hard. I think.
And believe it or not for every single quiz this year, I studied with my own sweat and blood and tears and I didn't rely a single bit on my dearest mother.
Well I'm not hoping for some grand applause and a red carpet leading to a Awards stage but.
I hope people understanddddddd sigh.
And bio ooooh bio.
I was so discouraged from what I heard in the morning but I continued studying hard for the quiz!!! And afterwards Chellie told me she marked I got 10/10 and I was like ahdoanalanalsnakznakskanaksnakanam. but still need ms Chee to check she's 5ever deductin marks from me.
But hey guys look- my first quiz was a 3. My second was a 7. OMG I HOPE I CAN GET 10.
Newfound motivation to study really really really hard!!!!!!
I brought so many subjects/things (incl a bassoon) home cus I was determined to make this weekend productive after only scraping by the week, completing only the tasks due this week and not doing anything else.
I was determined to finish all my hw and start revising for block tests!
I was/am determined to prove to me myself and I that YES my hard work will pay off my waking up at 3+ nearly everyday this week will pay off and prove to the world that NO I am not where I am because of brains but because of every tear, sweat, emotion, and bit of glucose that I freaking put in.
Wow sounding ambitious huh.

Guess what I did tonight-watch clif2. x(
Sigh I really need to be productive this weekend.
Practice hard for bassoon- it's 18 days left officially!!!!!!
Graces is next next week and next week is the last school week and we're havin 2 quizzes and I Must work hard and do well for them especially math so as to pull my grades up and I should try to get another 10/10 for Chem cus the feeling is just too thrilling!
And then SYF's after hols and block test schedule just came out so I must start my revisions sooooooooon.

And my Sis got back her A level results today and although my parents lamented for the past 1000months about how she would have to retake her As, she did quite well/well enough to go to NUS (the course that she wants) and WHOOOOSH I'm quite proud of her yay! EXCEPT now I feel so stressed cus I'm scared I wont be able to make it to HC much less CLEAR MY As T^T

And batch meeting was so hilarious I kept laughing the whole time although we were talking about oh-so-serious stuff but esp people like Lynette she's so hilarious every time she spoke I laughed and she should be a comedian.
But yeah other than meeting about proper stuff, I'm awkward w batch13 like now and 5eva I think. If I wasn't in comm I wouldn't even have gotten involved w any batch stuff lol.
Thankfully I have my batch-section-class mate Evelyn yay and although she's really quiet and she's now more known to me as Evil-lyn but at least I have someone there for me whoop!

And my evening-night actually went down a little cus of...some stuff but yeah. All's still well, I'm not Too sick and my eyes are red but I still see and I have a lot of work to do and my heart/chest has been hurting like shit these few days but I AM ALIVE.
I just felt abit sad because I thought of some stuff/ some people.
Like how I get really sick of caring somedays cus of e high level of insecurity present in me, worrying that the more I care the less the other person would. Or when people start going hot and cold and hot and cold so often that I get so scared that all I wanna do is run away already.
But i decided that I shouldn't think so far away.. And maybe just learn to be like others to only think about things when they come... And maybe just live in the moment.... And if things really do go wrong again, and people leave like how I hate for them to.................I flinch at the thought of what I ended up as in the past but I cross fingers that no matter what I can be strong enough to face whatever damage comes again this time round.
So I'm just gonna bite the bullet and hope for the best.

I'm really a possessive person, I'm unsecured, buggy/annoying, and I'm really easily affected/attached/hurt. I'm a lousy friend to have, much less a close one if that's what anyone's looking for. But I hope that one day, I could get a true friend, or even a best friend that I've always wished for, who would make me feel like I don't actually have to worry about being me, being all those, because the person would make me feel so secured in our ship..That i could just jump off the ship, knowing I'd be caught back up onto the ship using a life buoy by e other sailor. that I wouldn't have to feel scared, about anything anymore.

"Be perfectly imperfect, not imperfectly perfect." -a friend, 2011.








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