Our class won 1st for hamper wrapping and class deco! But the class deco was really our pride cus mr Khoo scolded us badly that morning for not decorating e class and so we just chionged whatever we could in a few hrs and e next day we found out we got 1st lollol. And for hamper wrapping honestly if I were a consumer I wouldnt buy my class' hamper cus it's not as good looking as the others but I guess part of the criteria was Eco-friendly so I guess a cute snake soft toy wouldn't fit it.

Anw during calligraphy I felt so 自卑 cus of Yijie and sherry's words But I decided I would be self-confident and take pride in my work! So although its dam dam ugly you better tell me it's the best masterpiece you've ever seen. Or actually why do I even care what you think I just need to think that way and be happy!
It's prolly e last time I'm ever writing calligraphy in my life btw. (or painting for my matter.)

Went back to TNS.
Gotta admit that I miss pri school life.
Weng Laoshi was quite nice hehe and got his new book!(: +his autograph! like in p4!

Mr Lim said our looks all changed a lot and he felt old although he looks exactly the same.

My p3 form tchr Lin Laoshi recognised me when I said hi to her just now and she remembered my name immediately. I was super touched cus she rmb my name after 7 years! And she was super nice to me when I just transferred to TNS in p3. I miss Lin Laoshi!

I went to say hi to my school bus Auntie and she said I changed a lot also and she said abit embarrassing stuff hehehe I'm shy to say this but she said ＂你啊，美女十八变！＂ and I was like "呵呵呵没有啦auntie你看起来也更年轻！＂(and I meant it!)

Going back to TNS reminds me of the times when time was slow. 4 years in sec sch has changed me alot. And every year things are changing just like w e snap of fingers. Every year a batch of seniors leave, a batch of seniors step up. This year, somehow it's alr my batch. Every year new teachers come in and teachers leave. things are so hectic.
4 years feels like its been an extremely long time.
But when I go back to TNS-
School buses are the same,
Canteen uncles and aunties and food are the same,
Classrooms are the same,
The teachers who have been there 10years before I was there are still there 4 years after I graduate.
Nothing changed.
Or everything's close to the same.
I miss having a simple life.
But when I got home, I realised that it's just a feeling of reminiscence. I don't want to be back in pri sch. I actually like my sec sch life too. It's actually the same, just more hectic, and more complicated, but still simple in a sense.
How do I describe that feeling..Haha nvm.
Oh yeah, even going home.
I've never taken public bus at TNS more than 5 times (only when I go back in sec sch) cus I've had school bus my whole Pri sch life.
I rmb on e first day of sec1, first time I took a public bus from ny all the way home at kembangan then.
I was scared and I spent hours researching on all kinds of bus routes to take and what to do if I got lost.
Miraculously, people wont believe but on the first day of school, I met sungjin, Lynette, Jaimelynne alr. We took bus tgt to Newton and took east line mrt home tgt and then we all happened to join band tgt. (except sj who alr dsa in)
Anw my point is that thankfully I met them!
But still, I never dared to fall asleep on the bus till I think middle sec2, after I got used to taking bus straight to a bus terminal so I wouldn't be scared of missing my stop.
I miss how in pri sch I had sch bus friends and all the chatter everyday and cramming together and the heat and stench after sch when everyone board the bus and uncle havent on the aircon yet. I miss running to school bus after sch cus if go too late they'd leave. Haha.
...The days when I didn't have to worry about getting lost, or not getting home.



Moving on!
The rest of today I've been living in my own time-does-not-exist world where time literally doesn't exist not that I'm short of time but that it doesn't even exist cus the whole of today I just ate slowly, watched ahboys to men till I fell asleep, napped, woke up to shower slowly and ate dinner slowly.
I was supposed to pack my worse than pigsty table.
But it's too messy that Ive been procrastinating since dec hols and even today I didn't do it. So I will do it tmr, yes.
And at night when my parents came back and we were watching news on e couch tgt for 30mins my mom was telling me how green my face looked and I was like thinking "great to know this at the beginning of long weekend, whoopwhoop!"
And after a while my mom wanted to eat chocs and went to e fridge that she opens 10 times a year to find chocs and scolded me cus I usually don't let my family eat the food other ppl buy for me and end up they expire (not the ones that are currently inside but like in the past-present) and have to throw but I rather throw them sometimes without eating or with only me eating. (then again dont gve me food cus i cant bear to eat my presents like really honestly although I'm alr trying to change now by eating all e sweets I have.) Anw I think I was kinda in my lalaland and I replied sth like "Cant I just do whatever I want with my things?" and yeah I just went back to my room after a while cus I didn't wanna start quarrels again.

I think I've mentioned that I'm a horrible child. And I need to change.

And I think I should mention in-case-it-isnt-already-obvious-enough that actually I'm a super contradictory person. I say what I don't mean and I don't say what I mean. At many times. Or maybe when I'm angry then I really say stuff that I don't mean. Not when I'm sincere. That'd be a "I mean what I say" story. And then for things that I'm more scared of I wont say them though I mean em.
Maybe the conclusion is just that I am not a very simple person to understand.

And cus of today's lalaland fantasy mode, tmr I better wake up earlier to pack and start doing the mountain pile of work I just compiled in my head, by listing to rin off my head. I'm actually not in hw mood at all and I actually think I'd be free to do work on Tuesday too but I better do some first/or at least the immediate ones in case I get too busy playing..

Sometimes I wish people wouldn't tell me I'm a close friend or a special friend or along those lines. The reason why I only have one category of friends, is cus idk what to expect from people sometimes and their signals can be an issue for a sensitive person like me so if everyone is just a friend, I won't expect anything much from them, neither will I get disappointed. If its an in-between, sometimes I get confused cus it's like I want to expect something more than just-a-friend, But I get disappointed easily cus I have to tell myself, "youre just a middle/friend so don't think so highly of yourself or expect thisthisthis from them."
So maybe all I can ever have in my life are.. Friends. Nothing more than friends.
Cus I'm really scared of becoming attached or possessive and if bad things happen itd hurt badly.
So this serves as a warning I guess...to actually quite a few people i have in my mind rai nao. keep away from me and don't let me even start to get near you, unless you can withstand my "stickiness", and are prepared not to leave.







saw the date on my phone at 11.46pm. i realised that it's been 2 years since you stepped into my life and a year since you left. if we hopefully remain status quo, I can admit having accepted that both of You, Are no longer and will never be in my life again.








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Our class won 1st for hamper wrapping and class deco! But the class deco was really our pride cus mr Khoo scolded us badly that morning for not decorating e class and so we just chionged whatever we could in a few hrs and e next day we found out we got 1st lollol. And for hamper wrapping honestly if I were a consumer I wouldnt buy my class' hamper cus it's not as good looking as the others but I guess part of the criteria was Eco-friendly so I guess a cute snake soft toy wouldn't fit it.

Anw during calligraphy I felt so 自卑 cus of Yijie and sherry's words But I decided I would be self-confident and take pride in my work! So although its dam dam ugly you better tell me it's the best masterpiece you've ever seen. Or actually why do I even care what you think I just need to think that way and be happy!
It's prolly e last time I'm ever writing calligraphy in my life btw. (or painting for my matter.)

Went back to TNS.
Gotta admit that I miss pri school life.
Weng Laoshi was quite nice hehe and got his new book!(: +his autograph! like in p4!

Mr Lim said our looks all changed a lot and he felt old although he looks exactly the same.

My p3 form tchr Lin Laoshi recognised me when I said hi to her just now and she remembered my name immediately. I was super touched cus she rmb my name after 7 years! And she was super nice to me when I just transferred to TNS in p3. I miss Lin Laoshi!

I went to say hi to my school bus Auntie and she said I changed a lot also and she said abit embarrassing stuff hehehe I'm shy to say this but she said ＂你啊，美女十八变！＂ and I was like "呵呵呵没有啦auntie你看起来也更年轻！＂(and I meant it!)

Going back to TNS reminds me of the times when time was slow. 4 years in sec sch has changed me alot. And every year things are changing just like w e snap of fingers. Every year a batch of seniors leave, a batch of seniors step up. This year, somehow it's alr my batch. Every year new teachers come in and teachers leave. things are so hectic.
4 years feels like its been an extremely long time.
But when I go back to TNS-
School buses are the same,
Canteen uncles and aunties and food are the same,
Classrooms are the same,
The teachers who have been there 10years before I was there are still there 4 years after I graduate.
Nothing changed.
Or everything's close to the same.
I miss having a simple life.
But when I got home, I realised that it's just a feeling of reminiscence. I don't want to be back in pri sch. I actually like my sec sch life too. It's actually the same, just more hectic, and more complicated, but still simple in a sense.
How do I describe that feeling..Haha nvm.
Oh yeah, even going home.
I've never taken public bus at TNS more than 5 times (only when I go back in sec sch) cus I've had school bus my whole Pri sch life.
I rmb on e first day of sec1, first time I took a public bus from ny all the way home at kembangan then.
I was scared and I spent hours researching on all kinds of bus routes to take and what to do if I got lost.
Miraculously, people wont believe but on the first day of school, I met sungjin, Lynette, Jaimelynne alr. We took bus tgt to Newton and took east line mrt home tgt and then we all happened to join band tgt. (except sj who alr dsa in)
Anw my point is that thankfully I met them!
But still, I never dared to fall asleep on the bus till I think middle sec2, after I got used to taking bus straight to a bus terminal so I wouldn't be scared of missing my stop.
I miss how in pri sch I had sch bus friends and all the chatter everyday and cramming together and the heat and stench after sch when everyone board the bus and uncle havent on the aircon yet. I miss running to school bus after sch cus if go too late they'd leave. Haha.
...The days when I didn't have to worry about getting lost, or not getting home.



Moving on!
The rest of today I've been living in my own time-does-not-exist world where time literally doesn't exist not that I'm short of time but that it doesn't even exist cus the whole of today I just ate slowly, watched ahboys to men till I fell asleep, napped, woke up to shower slowly and ate dinner slowly.
I was supposed to pack my worse than pigsty table.
But it's too messy that Ive been procrastinating since dec hols and even today I didn't do it. So I will do it tmr, yes.
And at night when my parents came back and we were watching news on e couch tgt for 30mins my mom was telling me how green my face looked and I was like thinking "great to know this at the beginning of long weekend, whoopwhoop!"
And after a while my mom wanted to eat chocs and went to e fridge that she opens 10 times a year to find chocs and scolded me cus I usually don't let my family eat the food other ppl buy for me and end up they expire (not the ones that are currently inside but like in the past-present) and have to throw but I rather throw them sometimes without eating or with only me eating. (then again dont gve me food cus i cant bear to eat my presents like really honestly although I'm alr trying to change now by eating all e sweets I have.) Anw I think I was kinda in my lalaland and I replied sth like "Cant I just do whatever I want with my things?" and yeah I just went back to my room after a while cus I didn't wanna start quarrels again.

I think I've mentioned that I'm a horrible child. And I need to change.

And I think I should mention in-case-it-isnt-already-obvious-enough that actually I'm a super contradictory person. I say what I don't mean and I don't say what I mean. At many times. Or maybe when I'm angry then I really say stuff that I don't mean. Not when I'm sincere. That'd be a "I mean what I say" story. And then for things that I'm more scared of I wont say them though I mean em.
Maybe the conclusion is just that I am not a very simple person to understand.

And cus of today's lalaland fantasy mode, tmr I better wake up earlier to pack and start doing the mountain pile of work I just compiled in my head, by listing to rin off my head. I'm actually not in hw mood at all and I actually think I'd be free to do work on Tuesday too but I better do some first/or at least the immediate ones in case I get too busy playing..

Sometimes I wish people wouldn't tell me I'm a close friend or a special friend or along those lines. The reason why I only have one category of friends, is cus idk what to expect from people sometimes and their signals can be an issue for a sensitive person like me so if everyone is just a friend, I won't expect anything much from them, neither will I get disappointed. If its an in-between, sometimes I get confused cus it's like I want to expect something more than just-a-friend, But I get disappointed easily cus I have to tell myself, "youre just a middle/friend so don't think so highly of yourself or expect thisthisthis from them."
So maybe all I can ever have in my life are.. Friends. Nothing more than friends.
Cus I'm really scared of becoming attached or possessive and if bad things happen itd hurt badly.
So this serves as a warning I guess...to actually quite a few people i have in my mind rai nao. keep away from me and don't let me even start to get near you, unless you can withstand my "stickiness", and are prepared not to leave.







saw the date on my phone at 11.46pm. i realised that it's been 2 years since you stepped into my life and a year since you left. if we hopefully remain status quo, I can admit having accepted that both of You, Are no longer and will never be in my life again.








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