Friday, September 28, 2012 | 9/28/2012 12:06:00 AM | 0 comments
this is so unhealthy blogging 3 times a day but ive got to talk.no ive gotta shut up. but i wanna talk!!
did Japan's Journey the whole afternoon! typed notes out instead of writing them cus more time saving.
gonna do NHS after this then sleep (Although im already sleepy so im blogging to try to wake myself up)
im so weird when im pmsing seriously gosh.
anw. went for vaccination!!!! actually i was still a bit scared cus the needle so much longer than my usual.
then i told the young and quite-good-looking doct to gimme a sec.
and he said sure and he told me i was a brave brave girl cus i told him my friends were scared too and they said it hurt quite badly.
and he said im brave cus he cant even jab himself but i jab myself 4 times daily :D
he was fast and reallllllly good i didnt even feel the normal prick from my normal needle!! (=
i like nice doctors! have i mentioned? 8)
(and he didnt have a ring on his left fourth finger ahhhhh!! okay shhhh shut up lwh!!)
he also told me that actually my upper arms have all the ugly marks is cus of insulin deposits.
i never knew that before cus...i didnt learn as a kid?
for a few mins i felt more resentful towards my condition. then i accepted it.
my thighs are alr bruised, stomach alr lumped and hard they're adding on to/looking like my fats. so what's two more arms? at least i have insulin in me, at least im alive and kicking and complaining right now. yknow, before i was born in 1997, people actually died of my condition. and also! if next time people can not like judge me and overlook these ugly scars, i will know they are true friends.
back to le handsome! 8)
ahh i cant forget how nice he wasssss! but he gave me a lot of medicine to bring to china ):
like quite a damn lot. blehhhhh. OK I WONT EAT THEM AT ALL.
i think/hope/pray? im abit scared but....sigh.
then daddy went to buy me vitamin! they're sugar free and nice :D
was supposed to buy toiletries but decided to go next friday since my "last paper"'s then.
I CANT WAIT.
came home, did math while watching the 9pm show and got annoyed with mediacorp.
um, i never knew that a spoilt/ruptured/missing pancreas is LIFE ENDANGERING?
"你要我的丽芬以后怎么活！！！"
LIVE WITH IT?! LIVE LIKE ME. DUH?!
so stupid. if mediacorp made sense, i'd be dead by now.
anyway i went to play piano for dam long afterwards!
like from 10pm till now.
okay not very long. but i played!
i played my 4 pieces, and since i found out that Brahms actually requires more "fierceness" than moonlight sonata i ended up playing/banging really hard the keys and by the time i realised that i just went for a not-my-normal-jab jab 2 hours ago, my whole left arm was nearly paralyzed with numbness alr. cannot press my left arm now ouch. x(. so i put my books away and played my fave pieces! and released a lot of emotions.
thank you music. (:
received a text from looyee again before i decided to blog haha, it was more of a random reply in our convo, telling me to jiayou and that she noticed im still not-quite-happy.
idk how she sees/knows but idrk myself cus im just like..normal. but im trying though! to be happier. i love lyn a lot (: she is a really caring and nice friend. one of the most in my new friends. ^^
with that, im off to mug! byeeeee i hope my craziness stops soon so i stop wasting time here but blogging makes me feel really quite so good, cus i try to think of happier thoughts and when i articulate more crazy thoughts it makes the negative ones go away a lil more. hehe!
jiayou!
#np Plain White Tees- 1,2,3,4
#playing just now: When There Was Me and You- Vanessa Anne Hudgens (High School Musical OST, 2007)
#current mood: sleepy; reminiscing; happy; sad.
