Last day of the year.. It's really so scary how time passes so quickly.
This year..has been a really tiring and rough year.
In January, we were all worrying and planning for the worst. We just shifted house and i had a really bad time adapting.
I still remember right after my birthday and after new year, in February, when i finally got used to my new life..
my nightmare all started.
When everything was really dark and bad, I met an angel in my life who accompanied me through everything.
That lasted for a while. In April, someone else who was alr in my life became a rather important part. Things started off rocky and never was really smoothsailing. And that lasted a while too.
I had my first syf, most memorable yet really regretful experience. I learnt that some things in life cannot be helped, no matter how much we try.
I was hospitalized the first time in April, and another two times after that. Throughout these three times... I learnt a lot. About who my true friends were.. About who really cared.. And about who only cared whn I was down. But in any case, these 3times have been enough. I hope I won't ever need to be admitted anymore..
I stayed in boarding school, and learnt a lot about independence and how to care for and live with people who aren't my family, esp Katherine. She's really a truetrue great friend who I can't thank enough, cus she listens so attentively to me always, be it in boarding school or even now, half a year later.
I think it was fr June onwards, my 3/4 esp nich frequently came over.
She comforted me and was there for me always, esp durin the hols when things started getting rocky for me.
I can never forget 8th June, when I quarreled badly w someone the night before and felt totally sick the next day fr a mistake I made the night before.. And cus of that quarrel, I quarreled w someone else, which made me even more upset..
Nich came over, with a heart shaped pancake and she spent the rest of the day w me doing things I liked. Then that night she stayed over, even though previously her mom didn't really want to let her. I was super touched.. Although recently some things happened between us and friction occurred, I'll never forget this best friend ever. And I really miss her a lot..yup.
In July we had youth day or sth. The school funfair. That was when Huiling touched me too.. I never knew they cared that much really..
After our duties, we were roaming about sch and I wasn't feeling really well so I threw up and had to go take medicine. While all the fun and laughter went on, she sat on e bench outside class w me patiently for half an hour, waiting for me to feel better, making me laugh and ensuring I was fine.. I wun forget that time and all the other times when she came over to my place and we just lay there talking (although there was e presence of my irritating bro and the floor was super uncomfortable>< ) I wun forget those times..
I wun forget zijun too.. Sitting w her for 3 terms, I shared a lot of things w her, and we laughed about a lot of things tgt. She always helped me w math too and accompanied me alot of times to do things eg go toilet which most ppl wouldnt. (ahem ><)
Dramafest.. It was both a bad and good experience fr me.
Good cus I learnt a lot and became closer to other classmates..
Bad cus it brought conflict upon my entire clique.
But through e entire thing, hanlu touched me.
Wun forget that argument.. How she stood up for me. How she took care of me and protected me those few days.
I was quite sick and tired after eoys and sugars had been so crazy I just felt dizzy most of e time..
Glad that she was there throughout everything..
My last hospitalization this year.. Which towards the end of that week I started to get really depressed..
I won't forget those friends that stood by me and kept cheering me on..
And so the same for the sap scholarship interview.
Yep..
Followed by the europe trip these few weeks.. One of e most memorable trips in my life overseas. With the family.. But just on the night we came back a really bad quarrel started.
Until now nothing is resolved, we're all just avoiding the topics.
But I missed those 15days w them..most of those memories were really sweet. So sweet that I felt everything was a dream. A dream I didn't wanna wake up from.
A dream that didn't have so much reality for me to have to face those few days.
But alas, all is over now.. In 30mins a new year will begin, a new face of my life.
I'm really worried about 2012..
Worried about school esp.. New class new friends new subject combis new challenges. New band.
Worried about getting a new helper..
Worried about how I'm gonna cope w/o certain ppl in my life..
But I guess 2012 will be a brand new year for me too, I must be more positive and look at it with hope.
So here are my resolutions for the new year!
1. Manage my health well.. Learn to take care of myself and stop hyperventilating..find that strength inside me to control myself..
2. Work harder towards everything.. Work harder in school especially, pull my lousy grades up.. Work harder for my ships.. Manage everything well..
3. Watch my tongue more. Cus it has been quite bad. But at least it shows others I'm not the old me.
4. Go back to my Father, because I've drifted so far apart from Him idk where I am now, and often I find myself alone with no support or strength.
5. Become stronger emotionally. Be more positive.
6. STOP BEING LAZY OR STUPID.
7. lose more weight(!!!!!!!!!!!!)

I think that's about all... I guess many others would have bigger and better resolutions.. But if I can accomplish those next year, I'd be really very grateful.

Lastly, before I end. (gosh it's 1147 alr)
Although this has been a really rough year for me, I have survived it, and for that I give thanks. There have been bad times, but definitely really good times too which I'll never forget in my entire life.
I'm really thankful for those of you guys, who have helped to write the story of my year 2011 with me, for being a part of it.
Thank you all those who have stayed by me through all the big and small matters this year, never giving up on me.. I know I'm a really really stubborn person smtimes, and I don't have the best temper nor the best character.. But for y'all who have really so patiently and kindly beared with and guided me though this year, and for not giving up on me when I needed you the most, I'm really very grateful for each and every one of you..
Thank you those that have helped to write chapters of this year with me..
Although things are different now and although I really have to try to forget all the memories.. I'm still thankful to those of you, who through friction, quarrels and whoknowswhat, taught me how to be stronger and taught me to grow up and accept life/reality.
The first person I have to thank is my bbr fr the past..who has stayed in this crazy world of mine for 9months. The only memories I'll bring along w me will be 8Feb, and our USS trip. Thanks for everything.
Ty sh(not now) too. I'll bring along the words and smiles of yours with me.. And although everything will be awkward in future, I hope someday we'll be friends again.
Ty gb, for having been through some of my worst times with me. I'll never forget everyth in life that youve brought me, and the optimism you want me to keep.

Thank you also to SOHYUNMAN who has been by my side through everything this entire year!
And Nich, Huiling, Lulu, Katherine, Zijun, Fang, Ashley, Liwei, Wanlin, Sungjin, Joanna, Jaimelynne, Pam, Phoebe, Jasmine, Jocelyn, Kathy, Jingen, Rachel and every other person who has painted this beautiful picture for me in 2011.
It's 1159.

WISHING EVERYONE THE BEST OF YEAR AHEAD! <3
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MiL EniledA.
an average 14-year old;
Wishes come true on 30 Jan;
Taonannite 2006-2009, BiCEPer 2007-2009, NYgirl 2010-2011;
adeline30197@hotmail.com.

Wants.
God. True Friends. Family. Love. Care. Health. Happiness. Simplicity. Peace. Everything to be okay.

Her Thoughts | Her Words | Friends | Friends | Friends

Last day of the year.. It's really so scary how time passes so quickly.
This year..has been a really tiring and rough year.
In January, we were all worrying and planning for the worst. We just shifted house and i had a really bad time adapting.
I still remember right after my birthday and after new year, in February, when i finally got used to my new life..
my nightmare all started.
When everything was really dark and bad, I met an angel in my life who accompanied me through everything.
That lasted for a while. In April, someone else who was alr in my life became a rather important part. Things started off rocky and never was really smoothsailing. And that lasted a while too.
I had my first syf, most memorable yet really regretful experience. I learnt that some things in life cannot be helped, no matter how much we try.
I was hospitalized the first time in April, and another two times after that. Throughout these three times... I learnt a lot. About who my true friends were.. About who really cared.. And about who only cared whn I was down. But in any case, these 3times have been enough. I hope I won't ever need to be admitted anymore..
I stayed in boarding school, and learnt a lot about independence and how to care for and live with people who aren't my family, esp Katherine. She's really a truetrue great friend who I can't thank enough, cus she listens so attentively to me always, be it in boarding school or even now, half a year later.
I think it was fr June onwards, my 3/4 esp nich frequently came over.
She comforted me and was there for me always, esp durin the hols when things started getting rocky for me.
I can never forget 8th June, when I quarreled badly w someone the night before and felt totally sick the next day fr a mistake I made the night before.. And cus of that quarrel, I quarreled w someone else, which made me even more upset..
Nich came over, with a heart shaped pancake and she spent the rest of the day w me doing things I liked. Then that night she stayed over, even though previously her mom didn't really want to let her. I was super touched.. Although recently some things happened between us and friction occurred, I'll never forget this best friend ever. And I really miss her a lot..yup.
In July we had youth day or sth. The school funfair. That was when Huiling touched me too.. I never knew they cared that much really..
After our duties, we were roaming about sch and I wasn't feeling really well so I threw up and had to go take medicine. While all the fun and laughter went on, she sat on e bench outside class w me patiently for half an hour, waiting for me to feel better, making me laugh and ensuring I was fine.. I wun forget that time and all the other times when she came over to my place and we just lay there talking (although there was e presence of my irritating bro and the floor was super uncomfortable>< ) I wun forget those times..
I wun forget zijun too.. Sitting w her for 3 terms, I shared a lot of things w her, and we laughed about a lot of things tgt. She always helped me w math too and accompanied me alot of times to do things eg go toilet which most ppl wouldnt. (ahem ><)
Dramafest.. It was both a bad and good experience fr me.
Good cus I learnt a lot and became closer to other classmates..
Bad cus it brought conflict upon my entire clique.
But through e entire thing, hanlu touched me.
Wun forget that argument.. How she stood up for me. How she took care of me and protected me those few days.
I was quite sick and tired after eoys and sugars had been so crazy I just felt dizzy most of e time..
Glad that she was there throughout everything..
My last hospitalization this year.. Which towards the end of that week I started to get really depressed..
I won't forget those friends that stood by me and kept cheering me on..
And so the same for the sap scholarship interview.
Yep..
Followed by the europe trip these few weeks.. One of e most memorable trips in my life overseas. With the family.. But just on the night we came back a really bad quarrel started.
Until now nothing is resolved, we're all just avoiding the topics.
But I missed those 15days w them..most of those memories were really sweet. So sweet that I felt everything was a dream. A dream I didn't wanna wake up from.
A dream that didn't have so much reality for me to have to face those few days.
But alas, all is over now.. In 30mins a new year will begin, a new face of my life.
I'm really worried about 2012..
Worried about school esp.. New class new friends new subject combis new challenges. New band.
Worried about getting a new helper..
Worried about how I'm gonna cope w/o certain ppl in my life..
But I guess 2012 will be a brand new year for me too, I must be more positive and look at it with hope.
So here are my resolutions for the new year!
1. Manage my health well.. Learn to take care of myself and stop hyperventilating..find that strength inside me to control myself..
2. Work harder towards everything.. Work harder in school especially, pull my lousy grades up.. Work harder for my ships.. Manage everything well..
3. Watch my tongue more. Cus it has been quite bad. But at least it shows others I'm not the old me.
4. Go back to my Father, because I've drifted so far apart from Him idk where I am now, and often I find myself alone with no support or strength.
5. Become stronger emotionally. Be more positive.
6. STOP BEING LAZY OR STUPID.
7. lose more weight(!!!!!!!!!!!!)

I think that's about all... I guess many others would have bigger and better resolutions.. But if I can accomplish those next year, I'd be really very grateful.

Lastly, before I end. (gosh it's 1147 alr)
Although this has been a really rough year for me, I have survived it, and for that I give thanks. There have been bad times, but definitely really good times too which I'll never forget in my entire life.
I'm really thankful for those of you guys, who have helped to write the story of my year 2011 with me, for being a part of it.
Thank you all those who have stayed by me through all the big and small matters this year, never giving up on me.. I know I'm a really really stubborn person smtimes, and I don't have the best temper nor the best character.. But for y'all who have really so patiently and kindly beared with and guided me though this year, and for not giving up on me when I needed you the most, I'm really very grateful for each and every one of you..
Thank you those that have helped to write chapters of this year with me..
Although things are different now and although I really have to try to forget all the memories.. I'm still thankful to those of you, who through friction, quarrels and whoknowswhat, taught me how to be stronger and taught me to grow up and accept life/reality.
The first person I have to thank is my bbr fr the past..who has stayed in this crazy world of mine for 9months. The only memories I'll bring along w me will be 8Feb, and our USS trip. Thanks for everything.
Ty sh(not now) too. I'll bring along the words and smiles of yours with me.. And although everything will be awkward in future, I hope someday we'll be friends again.
Ty gb, for having been through some of my worst times with me. I'll never forget everyth in life that youve brought me, and the optimism you want me to keep.

Thank you also to SOHYUNMAN who has been by my side through everything this entire year!
And Nich, Huiling, Lulu, Katherine, Zijun, Fang, Ashley, Liwei, Wanlin, Sungjin, Joanna, Jaimelynne, Pam, Phoebe, Jasmine, Jocelyn, Kathy, Jingen, Rachel and every other person who has painted this beautiful picture for me in 2011.
It's 1159.

WISHING EVERYONE THE BEST OF YEAR AHEAD! <3
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