Trying.
It's not nice seein people around me all sad.
If I cont being sad my world would crumble to depression.
cus everyone else's sad and stressed.
I think I'm really gonna get e thing I wanted t get for my friends and seniors by next week.
Hopefully it can help them, even if it's just a little bit.
Looks like I'm totally fine now.
Nope I'm not.
Just trying to push everything down so I wont make things worse for everyone.
There's been enough sadness going around.
Even if it means sacrificing my own feelings, I'll still smile..
Idk if anyone will even notice the non-existent smile the non-existent me wears...
But what's wearing a mask all the time, if you can lessen the sad atmosphere just by a lil..
I'm already numb to my feelings anyway.
Inside, its so filled and full it became hollow and empty.
Guess that's how numbness works.
Just don't feel anything, just don't know anyth.
E only thing that keeps my heart beating- God.
E only thing that reminds me I still have feelings- sh.
Other than that, with who, with what.
I'm just a numb person.
Fake? Yeah. Cus I look so perfectly fine.
But I'm really tired of staying down all e time. Esp since no one cares. And when I mean no one there really isn't many. I'm not lucky like others, who have loved ones surrounding them 24/7.
But I'm satisfied for now.. With who I have..
Some ships aren't really going great. But I hope they'll be better after everything ends.
Just hope the ppl that are in my life now won't ever leave me again.
Irdk how I'll survive if smone else leaves again.
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MiL EniledA.
an average 14-year old;
Wishes come true on 30 Jan;
Taonannite 2006-2009, BiCEPer 2007-2009, NYgirl 2010-2011;
adeline30197@hotmail.com.

Wants.
God. True Friends. Family. Love. Care. Health. Happiness. Simplicity. Peace. Everything to be okay.

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Trying.
It's not nice seein people around me all sad.
If I cont being sad my world would crumble to depression.
cus everyone else's sad and stressed.
I think I'm really gonna get e thing I wanted t get for my friends and seniors by next week.
Hopefully it can help them, even if it's just a little bit.
Looks like I'm totally fine now.
Nope I'm not.
Just trying to push everything down so I wont make things worse for everyone.
There's been enough sadness going around.
Even if it means sacrificing my own feelings, I'll still smile..
Idk if anyone will even notice the non-existent smile the non-existent me wears...
But what's wearing a mask all the time, if you can lessen the sad atmosphere just by a lil..
I'm already numb to my feelings anyway.
Inside, its so filled and full it became hollow and empty.
Guess that's how numbness works.
Just don't feel anything, just don't know anyth.
E only thing that keeps my heart beating- God.
E only thing that reminds me I still have feelings- sh.
Other than that, with who, with what.
I'm just a numb person.
Fake? Yeah. Cus I look so perfectly fine.
But I'm really tired of staying down all e time. Esp since no one cares. And when I mean no one there really isn't many. I'm not lucky like others, who have loved ones surrounding them 24/7.
But I'm satisfied for now.. With who I have..
Some ships aren't really going great. But I hope they'll be better after everything ends.
Just hope the ppl that are in my life now won't ever leave me again.
Irdk how I'll survive if smone else leaves again.
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