Scary.
Knew it.
Knew being happy e whole day would result in this now.
People say that if you laugh too much you get nightmares at night
Really, I'm nt allowed to laugh or be happy..?
Chest beating so fast it's hurting badly.
Again.
Dk what to do man.
So tired of this cycle everyday.
So tired of feeling so scared.
Ahhhhhhhhhh.:'/
Sigh.

Ytd night dun have. Maybe is e medicine ba. This morn woke up alr laugh until high... Then went to humiliation smbody rashly. Actually I did think abt it and I knew e consequences. But i really cnnt stand e funny things anymore. Wanted to say out a few times before, then nich stopped me and said better not offend the person. But is like I really ignored many times and I cldnt stand it so I started scolding. And after that I thought abt it and think maybe there could be a reason that idk and cnt think of. And I realized I went overboard.. So I stopped. Cus army teach must answer for yourself.
So yeah.
But e person make me feel like things are even more ridiculous now.. But actually i can understand..and I know the person is not only offended, but also humiliated, upset, hurt and disappointed.. I feel bad.. But I really didn't think that much when I just shot everyth out I guess. And idk how to make things better cus things will never be better with someone like that person.. Once offended usually is always offended. I can only I'm sorry. But I also know that some people dun like to forgive too many times or what, and I really screwed up this time. So I shouldn't like go and care smuch abt sth thts likely gone case right.


Anyway why am I talking about that person.
Idk eh.
Many times before.. I always miss the person and cnt move on.
This time round I will try to move on and let go..cus afterall e person doesn't care abt me anymore and I no longer mean anyth t e person. And not like this time my mistake will make anything better，so must try to move on. Dk whether I'll be able to do it. But now's eoys and I need to concentrate and cnnt think abt anyth else anymore.

Dk la. Really dk what will happen in e future. Really unsure and scared. Just hope everything will be fine w most ppl/everybody..
Shall go back t sleep..promised tt I won't try t stay awake and think too much.
Even when I'm scared I shall go back to sleep..
Hope wun wake up again. So tired.
Idw. Idw anymore. So scary...
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Scary.
Knew it.
Knew being happy e whole day would result in this now.
People say that if you laugh too much you get nightmares at night
Really, I'm nt allowed to laugh or be happy..?
Chest beating so fast it's hurting badly.
Again.
Dk what to do man.
So tired of this cycle everyday.
So tired of feeling so scared.
Ahhhhhhhhhh.:'/
Sigh.

Ytd night dun have. Maybe is e medicine ba. This morn woke up alr laugh until high... Then went to humiliation smbody rashly. Actually I did think abt it and I knew e consequences. But i really cnnt stand e funny things anymore. Wanted to say out a few times before, then nich stopped me and said better not offend the person. But is like I really ignored many times and I cldnt stand it so I started scolding. And after that I thought abt it and think maybe there could be a reason that idk and cnt think of. And I realized I went overboard.. So I stopped. Cus army teach must answer for yourself.
So yeah.
But e person make me feel like things are even more ridiculous now.. But actually i can understand..and I know the person is not only offended, but also humiliated, upset, hurt and disappointed.. I feel bad.. But I really didn't think that much when I just shot everyth out I guess. And idk how to make things better cus things will never be better with someone like that person.. Once offended usually is always offended. I can only I'm sorry. But I also know that some people dun like to forgive too many times or what, and I really screwed up this time. So I shouldn't like go and care smuch abt sth thts likely gone case right.


Anyway why am I talking about that person.
Idk eh.
Many times before.. I always miss the person and cnt move on.
This time round I will try to move on and let go..cus afterall e person doesn't care abt me anymore and I no longer mean anyth t e person. And not like this time my mistake will make anything better，so must try to move on. Dk whether I'll be able to do it. But now's eoys and I need to concentrate and cnnt think abt anyth else anymore.

Dk la. Really dk what will happen in e future. Really unsure and scared. Just hope everything will be fine w most ppl/everybody..
Shall go back t sleep..promised tt I won't try t stay awake and think too much.
Even when I'm scared I shall go back to sleep..
Hope wun wake up again. So tired.
Idw. Idw anymore. So scary...
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