Monday, April 4, 2011 | 4/04/2011 02:46:00 AM | 0 comments
i cant believe this someone told me e person reads this 鬼地方。
shall see if e person really reads it (:3
okay.
erm.
i need to freak out, but now my brain's auto shut down and idk wht i wanna blog about.
lets start from........... friday?
okay
friday was geog! i hope i can get at least an A2 for it :X
was quite high for a while until music we had a test.
I TELL YOU, IN MY WHOLE LIFE TIME, THIS TEST WILL BE THE ONE BESIDES MY GRADE 6 THEORY PAPER THAT I DIDNT GET A1. I TELL YOU.
horribleeeeeeee. ):
i dun dare tell mummy shhhh :X
then during recess my bbear tell my she going home then i xian already ):
and then lessons continued like its no one's business that today was our last paper.
so i xianed until 1.25 and then we waited while vanessa went to see her chikgu.
then i was checking e duty stuff and helping huiling move back tables.
then i stand there and slack afterwards while she went beyond her duty and swept e floor and e disgusting layerS of dust -puke-
eh but now i realise our school brooms are better than e ones at boarding school lor!!
e school brooms can sweep up layers and layers of dust while boarding sch one cannot even dun-get-attached to the hair ):
anyway i was saying, next term she can take over me as CCC leow. she care evne more than me xia. totally applaud her. i literally wanted to give her a 1 month break 8)
after that we went down to eattttt!! (:
i had cheese fries wheeeeeeeeeee 8)
song never say properly her order and tell e aunty "i want spaghetti with mushroom sauce (which sounded like soup)" then e aunty got her spaghetti w e tomato sauce and added lots and lots of meat! until huiling said " err aunty i wanted mushroom sauce....." thn anyway e uncle very nice take new plate for her and sold e other plate for like 1.50 or something. DAM NICE. e aunty face so black and scold huiling in malay. ITS SO OBV CUS U CAN TELL FROM E TONE. so i felt like telling her "eh aunty ah, this is NYGH xia. we learn CONVERSATIONAL MALAY here. you want to scold people wait until we go away then scold can. or if not you use some other lang scold la." so stupid >.>
vanessa bought rice! natalie bought i forgot what O.O xinye bought fish and chips! hahaha her fish had bones inside bleh >.< then i drank milo! cus i think better take precautions since i dun have bbear to save me for e first time! BBEAR YOU SEE HOW IMPORTANT YOU ARE SO YOU CANNOT DUN COME ):
then i went for band. felt dam empty. cus no bbear, no ashley. and ashley promised she would come on friday. so anw me and fang went inside and we listened to e talk for 1.5hrs. quite meaningful fang took down a wholeee A4 page of notes. win (Y). then during e break i took e bear out and got reminded of ashley then i very sad :'( then fang hug me and tell me nevermind. fang is e one who never abandoned me at all last week! <3 then we played. and then we got cut off at one part. i think she felt quite bad :( i also felt super bad. like ms chong only asked about ashley and fang. its like actually im still there de im not invisible. even if i play like shit or cannot play at all right, you dun have to just cut us off liddat without even asking me to try then y give our big fat nice solo (although not main solo) to e idk who. but it was so freaking horrible and i felt dam bad :/
okay i need to think and type faster. time is ticking t-time time is ticking~
okay suddenly reminded of e song One. lol nvm xP
after band i went to look for serene to tell her about BSE Pulau Ubin stuff then end up talk to Michelle Tay omytiannnnnnnn OOOO: and she look into my eyes when i talk to her like ahhh 8PP
anw YAH i told her. -acts cool and normal-
then i went to look for cheryl ho I FINALLY GOT MY BAND UNIFORM OMYTIANNNNNNNNNNNNN!!! its like right from e weeks before my auditions where i started worrying and worrying whether i would get in and then going for the auditions and screwing up and crying for an hr plus tht day cus i screwed up and fang made me say out what was wrong so i cried and waiting nervously for e results for like a month to getting a MAYBE kinda answer and finally YES I GET MY BAND U IM GOING FOR SYF WITH MY SENIORS \(^.^)/ okay im still missing my skirt BUT DOESNT MATTER IM CONTENTED ENOUGH YES I AM 8D ate instant noodles alone ( ); ) and went down to realise we didnt get into e korean film/chinese food course thing but we got into e indian film/vietnamese food course thing so end up i went to function room to watch e indian film called chaek da india or something liddat! E COACH WAS SO HANDSOME IM SERIOUS AND E PLOT WAS VERY NICE. and mrs ang sat beside me during e movie =P and kat totally ponned it pft so naughty right. her dance end at 7.45 but she stay in her room until 9 ): we didnt get to watch finish though but it was really good (: then we had group sharing and i was in a SUUUUUUUUUUPER foul mood cus idek why. so me and kat went to e playground place to sit swing. and my head was spinning even before i got on e swing so after i got on it got worse but i got used to it le so nvm. then i was like xian there for so loooong while kat had fun cus her turn to become high. then my bbear called and talked to me then i felt SO much better. this much [ ]. ty bbear! <3
went bck to rm at 11 then showered and me and kat spammed 2 sheets of seaweed :P thn we took 100+ pics and i dozed off halfway cus i was super tired and nt feeling good.
friday alone write so much le and yes i feel like i let out many things alr. okay shall cont i have 15 minutes to write about yesterday and today.
yesterday was a good and bad day. but it was like more of good i guess!
we had to wake up at like norm time to assemble at 7.30 cus we were going to bukit timah nature reserve. so we like walked all e way quite long and tired alr finally reached KAP [ITS NOT AS NEAR AS IT SEEMS BY BUS OKAYYYYYYY!!!] and i bot drinks while e rest spammed stuff. after that we continued walking and walking and we went wrong path a few times and once we ended up at this railway place and we thought we were going the right way but it was wrong luckily we realised in less thn 5 minutes and turned back! so we went e right way and reached bukit timah hill foot quite fast ((: then before we climbed i checked it was like 4.8. then we started climbing. then cus our group wanted to take e super short but much steeper way so we just like went that way and i almost died halfway. managed to last until e top! then check tht time 2.2 i was like OOOOPS drop so much in 20 mins xP heh xP so anw i was sitting beside mrs seah whn suddenly this monkey ran out and eyed e picnic food so everyone else just grabbed the things and like moved away and e monkey keep eyeing e food so we were dam worried it was gonna hurt like one of our group members. then like suddenly it dashed past me to mrs seah and grabbed her banana and ran up a tree within 5 secs? then i was completely stunned and like WHAT ON EARTH JUST HAPPENED O.O but e monkey dam cute can 8) i keep waving to it idk if it understood or even saw me wave maybe it only saw food ):
so yes we picnic there until 12 then we started walking to dairy farm. then on e way i created like e biggest trouble i ever met. from 12 to 2 all i did was blindly climb up and own all e muddy steps while texting and trying to lessen trouble i tell y it was really literally "DEEP SHIT". then when our turn to do e challenge thing i had to surrender my phone and after that i felt more calm. like never worry so much. ANW WE WALKED 10.5KM. (Y) bck to story then i was so scared to climb e challenge pole at first that i was alr shaking everywhere evne before i started climbing. ): but then idk why i also just climb. then halfway i look down very scared again then i cling onto e pole like a koala bear i think ): then i climb to e top right, cus is only e pole. and the harnest rope is like in front of you. so totally no support, u have to stand on a pole diameter ~30cm and then balance and jump for e trapeze in front of you. i was so scared i couldnt even climb up to e top of e pole le i just cling thr halfway, when i finally got up right, i had to stand up. and have no support. and my legs were shaking so violently that e pole shook with me. okay e pole shook for everyone whose legs were shaking. then i tried to breathe properly and balance so i can aim and jump before i fall. end up my legs gave way and i just fell front cus i was so giddy and then i dropped le. ): and i was half crying half laughing when i got down i think i looked very stupid. and like got a few people come up and hug me i also dk who cus i so luan. and mr ang and e instructor whose name i forgot say nice stuff to make me feel better but i think i failed still :X kat was so pro she could like jump and hang in there for 10+secs!
after that we went bck to e bunk room thing and talk for 40+ minutes and 30+ spent on 2 ppl cus they were quarreling with each other :/ but after that i think everyone became super bonded!! i hope they resolve their dispute soon cus our group motto on Day 1 was to compromise and put aside our differences to come together and compromise and love one another even if it means y have to give in more thn e other party.
anyway.
yah i learnt a lot lor. from e challenge pole. like how i shouldnt have been so scared in e first place and then shake so much before even climbing then when i reach e top i wouldnt have fell off and got so giddy even before i balance myself :X and e sharing, like how we really must give in!!!
then we rushed back to school and i met my HPC bbear who was acting cool and wearing sunglasses. then i got off e bus and just pulled her and she didnt even know it was me i think ): ya and i horribly dumped her to katherine to sneak in and ran in to grab clothes for mummy. then i showered and did disgusting stuff w e help of my bbear!! <3 ty tytytytysm bbear i think i had e most fun whn we were in e room trying to sweep all e hair!! and in e toilet whn i throw e hair wrong place then end up on e floor and both of us cldnt stop laughing hehehehe! xP i feel so horrible i made a senior do these kind of things with me >.< nvm is a secret anyway no one will read this place shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! :X
then we cabbed to KLP and i realised i left my wallet in my dorm >< anw my bbear lent me money so not so bad :X we went e food court and shared a bowl of ban mian ^.^ so nice hehehehe BUT I GOT SPAMMED WITH VEGGIES ): anyway i didnt eat em i stuffed em under my spoon i hope bbear didnt see hehehehehehehehehe i so win \(^.^)/ then her friend and her friend's friend came and her friend bot us gong cha so nice hehehe (: but very awkward cus idk them then.. really very awkward yah nevermind. her friend very funny xP and her friend's friend very pretty (:
so we went to SIS and did cool stuff and ended up in e mosh pit where we sat down. and i started feeling quite bad cus is like................... very awkward. idk also. and is like i felt like outsider :/ e feeling was horrible i didnt like it ): but afterwards my bbear made me feel better. i think she saw through me this emo kid sulking at a corner by myself :X then when e concert started it was quite funny at first but I SAW THIS DAM SUAI UNTIL CANNOT GUYYYY WHO WAS DANCING MANY KOREAN BAND SONGS OMG HE WAS SO SO SOSOSOOSOSOSOSOSO SHUAI I WANTED TO DIE OMYTIANNNNNNNNNNNN. OH YA then i forgot whether it was before or after that shuai guy but bbear did sth to me and i returned e sth to her =P tht made me feel very happy! <3 although i know bbear also did tht to her section ppl before but i still very happy until got fireworks alr hehehehehe :P OH YA E MUSIC THERE RIGHT IS LIKE E BOM BOM MAKE IT SOUND LIKE IS YOUR HEARTBEAT REALLY BOM BOM SO COOOOOOOOOOOOL AT FIRST I REALLY THOUGHT IT WAS MY HEARTBEAT UNTIL BBEAR TELL ME IS NOT hehehehhee xP then I LIKE HUANG JING LUN AND DERRICK HOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH OMYTIAN I TELL YOU MY DERRICK HOH SHUAIIIIIIII UNTIL CANNOT!!! <3 <3 <3 and NI AN DONG AND XIAO GUIIIIIIIII OH MAN YES YES YES XIAO GUI WAS AHHHHHHHHHH <3 <3 <3 and XIAO YU / AO QUAN fr Lollipop F, their gaze like want to idk make ppl get DRUNK <3 then i didnt know se7en but i thought he was really cool! (((((= yup thats about it. the S.H.E thing so sad Ella went there alone. then hear e recordings fr Hebe and Selena also quite sad :X then Ella sang THEIR song w their fans so sad also like missing 2 ppl very funny :/ ya then e concert ended and i went back alone! like i walked to this guard person and ask if got taxi stand nearby he was like "here no taxi stand. you can follow the crowd to the mrt station.yah." then i so scared le. then i also dk walk until where suddenly cannot find anymore people xia then i got so scared >.< then i just stand there for like 20 minutes and wait wait wait then all e cabs tht went past were either Busy or OnCall then i just like wait and wait and pray for God to send a cab and FINALLY. like FINALLLLYYYYY after who knows how long this cab with green light came and e person was like "im going to queenstown where you going" then i started crying cus he sound so pissed and i scared he dw fetch me then i no more cab go home and i will die at KLP. but anw i say i stay at TP and he say okay can send me then i faster get into e cab and go home. then in e cab very awkward i keep sniffing i think he felt very funny also. >.< when reach home alr then i just ran into e house and was like HENG I FINALLY REACH HOME AHHHHHH. like omg i didnt know e house was so ... safe? idk. i felt so scared outside. and insecured .__. home is e best after all!!!
okay so after this long thing i learn a lesson: MUST LEARN TO RECOGNIZE PLACE WELL. then next time if i know i am like near for eg bus stop or near car park or near where, then i can call for help. if not only can stand there and couldnt ask mummy for help or ask anyone come and save me >< ytd so dark and smmore idek where the hell i was. >.< okay nightmare over must stop thinking about it anymore hehehehe xP then i went home and cried.. a while.. :X then slept very fast cus very tired!
okay 2.20am omg but i wanna empty everything so nvm la.
today i got woken up at like 8.20 then i jump out of bed and rush everything by 8.30 got down to car le HENG. my eyes were like swollen and having bad hair day but i couldnt care less so i just like anyhow comb and try pull my eyes open i think worked a bit. so when reach church thn realise in e mandarin adult service i was suppose to click ppt today then i so scared again like AIYOWODEMA. and i click e order a lot wrongly esp e sermon i didnt noe which slides e speaker was at then luan luan lai. >.< luckily no one come scold me >.< i was half dozing off during e sermon :X after that went for sunday school (: today i daoed someone big time and e idiot daoed me back but nevm nt ipt. went to sunday sch then we had to break into small groups for e studying for Joshua for bible comp on 1May (thanks gan ma set bible comp on labour day ))); ) and i ended up with like angela and phoebe! so 3 of us sat at this 4 ppl table and study so kelvin kept coming to seat on e empty chair. and behind us have pam and her clique and they were like being funny. >.> nvm bout that. E GUYS TOOK E BEANBAG AREA SO UNFAIR I WANTED IT TOO )<
after church angel went out w her clique to study and mummy had choir so daddy brought me and ben to buy pepper lunch cus e chao guo tiao store was closed \(^.^)/ enjoyed lunch (: after that slacked at home e whole afternoon. and then cus i was like tweeting and texting at e same time daddy went to be stupid and threw my touch and phone into his shirt in an attempt to "Confiscate" them and end up he had to dig e things out of his own shirt to return me =.= funny one lor =.=
before dinner someone pissed me off big time just cus i didnt do sth xia, then after that my mood spoil alr right, and then got another piss of news that make me quite sad but anw i just like let it pass la cus i also cnnt do anything what right. thn went out for dinner! pizza hut!! ((: we spent like >$65 idk how we spent so much cus only me and angel ordered e meals and drinks and daddy mummy and ben shared 2 pizzas. so anw yah. i enjoyed my crayfish basil pasta (: pizza hut (Y) and i was actually quite upset with somebody again but yeah nvm about that too cus e person had reason i found out later! and then bbear told me sth scary also and i was quite freaked out >.< i dun like all these kind of things cus i myself went through 4 times le, really its not nice .___. then cus i heard about like 5 jokes or sth, so i try to cheer bbear up and end up nvr succeed and i also feel like dying >.
im gonna do math tmr. cus im very tired now and its 2.34 alr. i cant believe i blogged so much!!
feeel sooooooooooooo much better. this feels so much more like my posts in p5 and p6. loong until cannot but my emotions just came out liddat through e small small matters and release a bit a bit of emotions so now i feel happy (: not like in sec1 and sec2, short posts but full of scary stuff that i scare myself with >.<
but learnt quite a few lessons:
- sometimes e ppl you think you can trust most end up blurting out yr darkest secrets to e whole world :X thats really quite sad so i hope it doesnt happen to me and kat. or not even me and anyone AT ALL. thanks.
- having someone with you physically might not mean you'll have e person's heart or what. being a possessive person, i really rather not have e physical person and just get e person's heart/attn instead of getting the person there but e heart dk where and nt even talking to me.
-some people talk really big about how much they care, but when they say that, i really dun believe although i'll acknowledge what they say. i really dun believe it cus i dun feel it at all. i think is really just e TALKING. you can tell me you "CARE" ,you "LOVE", you "WORRY", at the end of the day, it doesnt matter cus i personally went through your abandonment instead so i know its not true. and some people when they say Sorry also really big talk, say "SO SORRY" and next minute hurt me again. mine was literally two minutes later.
haohao, my head's literally spinning cus i realise i forgot to jab >< need to go jab now and tmr wake up a bit earlier to pack bag again bah :X
gnite me feels so much better! \(^.^)/
i hope no one will read this or know much about what i mean. i scared i say wrong thing and people find out so okay i really hope i didnt blurt too much rubbish and ppl wun know what i say/what i mean/ what i talking about! except maybe yunman will understand xP and bbear might understand abit! but i think all e someones i refer to only yunman will know hahahahaha xP
byeee <3
