i wish there were such small but many lanterns that would light up my life right now...
 i wish i had the right to dream.. to dream dreams that would come true...
 i wish someone understood and cared... that i'm not having a super easy life right now.. and added some oil for me...because how is it possible for a car to run on an empty gas tank?
 i wish those "friends" or whoever who said that they really loved/cared really meant their words...
 i wish the people who i believed in so much and trusted so dearly would stop disappointing me and making me feel so alone...
i wish i found God right now cus i've been seeking him for so long and yet unable to find him yet...




its 42 more days... will these wishes actually come true...i wish they would come true before then, cus i dun think i could wait that long...or maybe they could actually come true in 42 days... but maybe... maybe, they never will come true...

HAI.
feels like i've not been online/blogging/facebooking for a million years.
actually, its just a little more than 2 days.. i cant really rmb when i last blogged.
anw i didnt see th date of my last post, only noticed that there weren't any tags.
other than spams.
yup.
okay.
so i'm. disappointed? idk.
these two days have been pure numb for me..
packing and throwing everything 2 days ago,
yesterday carrying and shifting until whole body ached and so tired.
and after all the drama being unable to sleep,
and then today having to unpack and go for wedding and everything.
i just wanna drop down and die ugh.
tomorrow is crazy.
i have to reach church at 8am.
and before i leave house, my luggage for Vietnam in the afternoon has to be ready and everything,
i have to be prepared well enough for the wedding,
then after the wedding lunch, rush to the airport and take a plane in a [mini]dress and idk how many freaking inches heels which i cant walk idk how many hrs w/o screaming i'm tired.
ANYWAY.
i know i'm complaining hah.
shall stop soon, just needed to empty some stuff out..
this new place is. crazy.
but i've finished unpacking..
intend on doing hw in Vietnam.
not used to here. miss home loads. wish i could go home.
did really stupid things before i left my home in a rush and never took at last glance.
sigh.
need oil. loads and loads of them.
only 1 person gave me oil, CJJ...
anw i dun even noe what to write le..
just charging my iPod, glancing through crazy people's post on facebook's news feed ..
what's with the love letter writing to a bunch of numbers anyway...?
i havent been on fb for about 3 days so please forgive my retardedness.
and i really hate something about myself again.
my FORGETFULNESS.
esp now. i cant remember where i left things i put like. 10 minutes ago?
i think i'm crazy.
we all are.
we're just trying to cope and pass each day smiling and...surviving.
idk. that's what i think.
and just when i really need a break, i realise that OOOOPS, after this i have no more breaks.
immediately after Crazy Christmas, i have youth camp, then school reopens. BAM. the stress of sec2 life starts crushing in. thanks loads.
i'm starting to regret signing up for youth camp. think i made the wrong decision.
i'm gonna go for a camp to apparently BOND with PEOPLE cus its OHANA, and then i will realise that i go for the 4 days 3 nights camp to BOND with GOD cus its... OHANA. and then go home dying of fatigue and screaming that my homework is well. undone.
great.
i think i will just give it up.
who cares if i signed up already, i paid the money so its my prob anyway.
im getting sarcastic.
i really dk what to write.
i'm going crazy.
ughhhhhhh.
and then when i go to Vietnam i think i will go crazier.
and i wun have yunman to sms.
so sad, now i only have her to sms.. idk who else to sms.
xinjie is overseas...
hazel and yunman are both.. busy. i cant even sms either of them.
and when i'm overseas even worse.
at least there'd be a beach.
hopefully i can find a place to scream.
sigh i shall stop my attempt to let things out.
i'm only making myself feel worse while emptying them,
and at the end while trying to empty them, i add more,
and i will really go crazy.
tmr will be the last day i see yogurt until like 27th December.
and if i dun go for youth camp, i can congratulate myself cause the next time i see yogurt would be 2 January.
so far...
i'm tired..really am...
i want a break..but there isn't anymore..
i want more oil to carry on.. but there isn't anyone to add them...
i want someone to talk to..but there isn't anyone that bothers to listen.

smart people fail too.
healthy people fall sick too.
walls and buildings that seem so strong collapse too.
why cant smiling people/cheerful ones have the right to fall and be down?

a stupid girl can dream of being smart.
a sick girl can dream of being healthy.
an ugly girl can dream of being pretty.
a fat girl can dream of being slim.
a friendless girl can dream of having friends.
an admirer can dream of being with her crush.
a depressed girl can dream  of being cheerful
a lousy and imperfect girl can dream of being perfect.
and i'm that crazy dreamer, dreaming of dreams that would never ever come true.
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an average 14-year old;
Wishes come true on 30 Jan;
Taonannite 2006-2009, BiCEPer 2007-2009, NYgirl 2010-2011;
adeline30197@hotmail.com.

Wants.
God. True Friends. Family. Love. Care. Health. Happiness. Simplicity. Peace. Everything to be okay.

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 i wish there were such small but many lanterns that would light up my life right now...
 i wish i had the right to dream.. to dream dreams that would come true...
 i wish someone understood and cared... that i'm not having a super easy life right now.. and added some oil for me...because how is it possible for a car to run on an empty gas tank?
 i wish those "friends" or whoever who said that they really loved/cared really meant their words...
 i wish the people who i believed in so much and trusted so dearly would stop disappointing me and making me feel so alone...
i wish i found God right now cus i've been seeking him for so long and yet unable to find him yet...




its 42 more days... will these wishes actually come true...i wish they would come true before then, cus i dun think i could wait that long...or maybe they could actually come true in 42 days... but maybe... maybe, they never will come true...

HAI.
feels like i've not been online/blogging/facebooking for a million years.
actually, its just a little more than 2 days.. i cant really rmb when i last blogged.
anw i didnt see th date of my last post, only noticed that there weren't any tags.
other than spams.
yup.
okay.
so i'm. disappointed? idk.
these two days have been pure numb for me..
packing and throwing everything 2 days ago,
yesterday carrying and shifting until whole body ached and so tired.
and after all the drama being unable to sleep,
and then today having to unpack and go for wedding and everything.
i just wanna drop down and die ugh.
tomorrow is crazy.
i have to reach church at 8am.
and before i leave house, my luggage for Vietnam in the afternoon has to be ready and everything,
i have to be prepared well enough for the wedding,
then after the wedding lunch, rush to the airport and take a plane in a [mini]dress and idk how many freaking inches heels which i cant walk idk how many hrs w/o screaming i'm tired.
ANYWAY.
i know i'm complaining hah.
shall stop soon, just needed to empty some stuff out..
this new place is. crazy.
but i've finished unpacking..
intend on doing hw in Vietnam.
not used to here. miss home loads. wish i could go home.
did really stupid things before i left my home in a rush and never took at last glance.
sigh.
need oil. loads and loads of them.
only 1 person gave me oil, CJJ...
anw i dun even noe what to write le..
just charging my iPod, glancing through crazy people's post on facebook's news feed ..
what's with the love letter writing to a bunch of numbers anyway...?
i havent been on fb for about 3 days so please forgive my retardedness.
and i really hate something about myself again.
my FORGETFULNESS.
esp now. i cant remember where i left things i put like. 10 minutes ago?
i think i'm crazy.
we all are.
we're just trying to cope and pass each day smiling and...surviving.
idk. that's what i think.
and just when i really need a break, i realise that OOOOPS, after this i have no more breaks.
immediately after Crazy Christmas, i have youth camp, then school reopens. BAM. the stress of sec2 life starts crushing in. thanks loads.
i'm starting to regret signing up for youth camp. think i made the wrong decision.
i'm gonna go for a camp to apparently BOND with PEOPLE cus its OHANA, and then i will realise that i go for the 4 days 3 nights camp to BOND with GOD cus its... OHANA. and then go home dying of fatigue and screaming that my homework is well. undone.
great.
i think i will just give it up.
who cares if i signed up already, i paid the money so its my prob anyway.
im getting sarcastic.
i really dk what to write.
i'm going crazy.
ughhhhhhh.
and then when i go to Vietnam i think i will go crazier.
and i wun have yunman to sms.
so sad, now i only have her to sms.. idk who else to sms.
xinjie is overseas...
hazel and yunman are both.. busy. i cant even sms either of them.
and when i'm overseas even worse.
at least there'd be a beach.
hopefully i can find a place to scream.
sigh i shall stop my attempt to let things out.
i'm only making myself feel worse while emptying them,
and at the end while trying to empty them, i add more,
and i will really go crazy.
tmr will be the last day i see yogurt until like 27th December.
and if i dun go for youth camp, i can congratulate myself cause the next time i see yogurt would be 2 January.
so far...
i'm tired..really am...
i want a break..but there isn't anymore..
i want more oil to carry on.. but there isn't anyone to add them...
i want someone to talk to..but there isn't anyone that bothers to listen.

smart people fail too.
healthy people fall sick too.
walls and buildings that seem so strong collapse too.
why cant smiling people/cheerful ones have the right to fall and be down?

a stupid girl can dream of being smart.
a sick girl can dream of being healthy.
an ugly girl can dream of being pretty.
a fat girl can dream of being slim.
a friendless girl can dream of having friends.
an admirer can dream of being with her crush.
a depressed girl can dream  of being cheerful
a lousy and imperfect girl can dream of being perfect.
and i'm that crazy dreamer, dreaming of dreams that would never ever come true.
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