Friday, December 10, 2010 | 12/10/2010 11:35:00 PM | 0 comments
today i experienced something so powerful and REAL again! (:
1. I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!
2. JUST DO MY BEST, LET GOD DO THE REST!
i prayed and i tried hard.
God sent me Lao Shi to give First Aid while everyone was having main band.
and i had Fang Yi who although acted like a block of WOOD, still managed to calm me down and help me during my auditions.
i'm really unsure if i can pass, cause i made many blunders. and i was so nervous my whole sound was shaky and WAVY like WIZARDS OF WAVERLY PLACE [ yeah i heard that Comm..]
plus my sense of rhythm was horrible since i couldnt really see the score and played by memory.
and i had intonation problems.
but i thank God cause i did my best. and during the high G solo part, although i failed many times, He gave me the strength and COURAGE to put down all my fear and just play it like ROUNDLY or idk how they describe it.
but i couldnt hear much difference although they were talking as if the first time and last time i play got heaven and earth difference like tht :X
anyway its over, i shan't go think about whether i pass or fail.
i just feel glad that i experienced God's help..
OH WAIT I DIDNT SAY THE BIGGEST PART.
HE HEPLED ME IN A WAY THAT REALLY SHOW ME "THIS IS REALLY GOD'S WORK"
most/many of my batchmates said they got "scolded" [actually i seriously dk their definitions] and i was really scared cus the thing i hate most/scared of most besides seeing doctor, jabbing and blood is getting scolded.
the Comm were really so nice, Michelle Lim smile so much at me, Michelle Tay give me advice and help me and somemore laugh and be funny and make me almost want to laugh and also.. yeah la she was nice. and Xin Yi forgave the part where i couldnt play high notes and just told me to practice the high G long note so i can play better. and FANG YI, i just look at her and most of the time she got help me speak up.
i think when i received these feedback/comments/reactions, i feel like i never get what my batchmates called " scolded"
maybe i played very bad and i needed the scolding or what, but somehow i just didnt get the scolding i think i should have gotten..
OR maybe my batchmates were just being scary. but yeah. nevermind.
so i really thank God..
then funny thing happen when i come home.
me and FY text each other at same time [my phone lag so my msg send out 1 min late] that we both forgot about our NOEL tickets.
so after long long long story,
tomorrow i will go back to GO, ask for band room keys, go past the 2 doors, open the plastic file, flip to the first plastic sheet and save my two suffocating tickets!
hah.
anyway yup.
idk what else to blog.
oh yeah.
i'm sick. AGAIN ):
cus just now came back from band a bit giddy.
then sat down and packed for very long.
butt ache and body ache.
when stand up super giddy.
so went to lie down and sms at the same time.
in the end felt so horrible so went to sleep.
woke up 1hr+ later with massive headache and black spots :S
and now my body's aching again so i think i shd go and sleep soon.
and i should really go and prepare my script + stuff for this Sunday.
and continue packing.
WITH GOD, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!
i will pack finish my seemingly impossible to pack room by next Friday!
and in the meanwhile, probably go for band next Tuesday [falling in love with band again <3]
and hopefully go out w my dearest friends next Wednesday.. although mummy like not happy :/
i think she thinks im insensible.
WTV. im 13.
and she said this morning i should bury all feelings inside.
cause i'm only THIRTEEN. and that someone is a SLOW DEVELOPER.
and yeah. and she say "even if is ONE YEAR, a C is a C, one day will get over de"
sooooo. i feel like telling her "u noe in USA, some horribly sick ppl alr do IT at 13. but ew tht's totally out of the picture. "
but i didnt say out la hahahahaha x)
so yeah. shall listen to my mummy. she say no say, means no say.
comin to think about it, she's so right. i'm THIRTEEN. not THIRTY.
13. gosh. i'm so young!!! :DDDD
so yes. but for now i will put aside him and stop thinking le.
i have so many things to rush.
and its quite good, i really stop thinking about him anymore.
although sometimes when nothing much's on my mind, he just pops up.
neverminddddd.
aiysh.
IM HAPPY TODAY (:
was loooking through last yr + this yr's stuff just now.
saw some really sweet messages some people wrote to me last yr.
and how we passed notes around last yr hahahahahaha x) zomg dam funny looking back now..
i miss those times :/
and soh yun man's birthday letter for me written in SNGS full scap hahaha but the envelope is nice la.. AND THEIR FULL SCAP ALSO QUITE COOL DE CAN. ours is so standard, same as TNS only different font and colour, so xian.
but yup NYGH is cool too 8)
and APPASSIONATA XII letters from all the seniors/batchmates (:
and all the cheesy letters we wrote to each othr in class this year..
hahahaha make me smile and feel nice again (:
TGIFRIDAYYYYYYY!!! :DDDDDDDDDD
UGH. BUT.
the next week looks sooooo long and dreaded. ):
and packing is so tiring and messy and CRAZY.
BUT I SHALL PASS THEM SMILING (:
and they will FLY past.
and i wun have done my hw yet,
nor my creative arts portfolio
or maybe not even settled in TP yet.
or unpacked anything yet.
i shant talk so far. OR PACKED EVERYTHING YET.
hahaha
im so happy today (:
i love fang yi and ashley, MYYYY [ idc if im a jealous wife , you both are MINE.] seniors, hazel and yun man, MYYY BFs, and alll the so nice people like michelle lim, michelle tay [i decided i do like her after all, just not that incident.], lim xin yi. yes.
my life is nice (: i'm glad i learnt to stand up. the world looks nicer from this view (:
byee :D
