Thursday, December 9, 2010 | 12/09/2010 12:28:00 AM | 0 comments
HELLLOOOOOO! :D
my mood is chao good today! :D
actually it was only okay in the afternoon and quite bad this morning.
but i'm really suuuuuuuuuper duuuuuuuuuuper happy right now now now :D
cause i talked to hazel and xinjie! :D
i love talking to my bfs :D
they just make my day loadds better :D
and yunman made my day better RIGHT FROM THE START!! hahahaha.
she put out fire. (:
its really nice (:
today, i'll smile reallllllly widely cause of my bfs.
and give thanks for them.
give thanks i have 3 bfs.
one who put out fire in the morning,
two who will add laughter and sparkle into my day at night so i can go to sleep happy (:
I. AM. HAPPY. I REALLY AM <3
you guys seriously dk how much i miss you all!
but i promise i'll keep on smiling for you all (:
what happened on monday and tuesday was kinda bad.
i cried. but i smiled too hahaha.
on monday/tues we had st. marg's exchange.
and it wasn't really good on monday.
but i was nice enough. i really was. i didnt do things i intentionally planned to do ._.
then ashley and i were being random and we were talking about not going on tues.
and fangyi blurted it out on tuesday morn.
i was late on tues. by 5 minutes or so. and i now hv punishments :S anw tht isnt the point.
the point is apparently the whole band got scolded cus someone overheard fang and yeah got angry.
and i missed the scolding. but anyway i was filled in by fang and a few others here and there la.
but i felt like some freaking sinner cause i got glared at like crazy by someone many many times.
and i felt so bad. i even cried. but yeah the main point is my whole mood was ruined. bleh.
nevermind la. is my fault anyway shouldnt have gone to rubbish. but my mood was ruined.
then when i went home things didnt really get better. but i still gave thanks for some stuff. and went to bed okay-ish. and fang made me smile still. so i still smiled! and i only had like one friend at band, her.
really cant get along well w batchmates for some reason :/
and i dun have many other friends in band. sigh. neither do i in church, nor anywhere! haiya nvm.
i still have my close friends and bfs (:
today i was supposed to follow mum to office.
end up she had meeting so dad said he would bring me.
end up dad couldnt leave office so i had to go w ben and helen.
which i absolutely didnt want to. so i tried to understand that my parents were busy and gave concession.
but they didnt agree to not let a NINE yr old BOY stay outside a room for FIFTEEN MINUTES.
so i was pissed, and everyone seemed to be scolding and saying stuff bout me and no one bothered to understand my feelings of having to go face my greatest fears and most hates things alone cause my parents were busy and they had originally agreed to bring me.
then i smsed yunman and she woke up and like help me put out fire before going back to sleep hahahaha thanks woman <3
so we went to hospital and the doctor didnt want to see me cause i didnt fast in the morn cus of some huge huge misunderstanding wihch im kinda tired to write about now.
and end up mummy show her face[meeting cancelled] and everything got done.
not everything. i didnt do 2 out of 3 tests cus i didnt fast and another cus of another reason! x)
but i did the blood test one. which meant the long long long long thick thick thick X1000 needle which i get once a year go right into my elbow area vein there and now my left hand's really numb but my fingers are still able to type so yeah. but it was quite painful and the stupid me actually didnt realise the blood test meant this one, i thought it was the norm 3 monthly thingum. very stupid right =.=
but i got passed it. and i didnt have any reaction. cus i really was surprised. but i smiled. cus i faced this thing. alone (: or not. with God (: ty Father <3
then i saw doctor. he say " the ingredient is RESPONSIBILITY. i want RESPONSIBILITY before i give you the pump. below 9% okay? "
yuppp.
my aim now: HBA1C, u scram below 9%!!
im tired of needles! so i want my pump. i shall work hard for that. 8)
= more exercise, stricter diet [not so much choc anymore )): i will die seriously.], better control, etc.
if i want something, i have to earn it. by showing i can be responsible for my own life!
whoa. my life. big responsibility. but i'll try. maybe it'll happen. but 3 months later, 3 years later or 30 years later, is up to me. so i have to work hard.
THOSE PEOPLE WHO I SEE OFTEN DE. DUN WHOLE DAY TRY TO TEMPT ME , I WILL GET ANGRY )<
yup. and then i went to toa payoh and bonded with my room for 4 hours.
read finish "where rainbows end" and listened to nice music. and i like my purple wall. but i hate the yellowish looking aircon which just makes the whole room feel disgusting.
and they said they would paint another wall purple cus most of my furniture cover up my purple leow.
had really yummy satay beehoon for dinner. (: ZOMG I LOVE THAT ITS REALLY SO YUMMY CAN. 8DD
and then watched this show called Ninja Warrior. was in jap so i was trying to test my listening skills but kinda expected, fail la. >.> its so cooool and the people are really strong and all that i was just O.O whoaing the whole hour+ half.
yup. anyway. the thing is. my day actually turned out quite okay today right ? (:
i actually thought things couldn't get worser..
but its really quite okay(: im glad i made the decision to give concession. and to listen.
end up mummy came along.. i didnt really hate my room THAT much, and i had nice dinner (:
but i'm kinda frustrated right now. and prolly going crazy. REAL crazy. not cause of problems.
WELL. OKAY. THEY ARE PROBLEMS. HUGE ONES.
MY SCHEDULE FROM TOMORROW ONWARDS. ITS KILLING. OR IT WILL KILL.
i realise i'm out of time.
totally out out out of time! so i'm really going crazy O:
SCHEDULE:
tmr-fri [10-11th]: band band band band band + auditions which im likely gonna fail cus the seniors are angry w me.
sunday [12th] : song leading for first time but im not so scared anymore.. (:
< next week onwards : taking leave from band. therefore... >
next mon - thurs [13-16th]: pack my crazy room which might require 100000 boxes. and practice piano for 19th. OH. and piano lessons :S
fri [17th]: find some way/time to collect my sec 2 books which i had ordered online and fixed date to be on fri. CUS. i'm moving. its THEE BIG DAY. :X
sat [18th] : chaotic house + unpacking. OH YES. PLUS my dear cousin Alvin gor gor's wedding tea ceremony thingum for whole morning. [ ps. figure way to find time to practice piano for 19th and do a lil work]
sun [19th]: ANOTHER BIG DAY. 1. pianist for Youth Worship in the morn. 2. rush for Alvin gor gor's wedding lunch thingum in the afternoon. 3. rush for plane to Vietnam [seriously, my parents are kinda mad] at 4pm.
fri [24th] : return from Vietnam in afternoon, rush for Christmas concert @ Bethel cus Ben's involved.
sat [25th] : morning service at church, otherwise should be free. maybe should go do some work.
sun [26th] : church + pack clothes+do homework or die.
Mon-Wed [27-30th]: THEE ANTICIPATED/DREADED OHANA: BETHEL YOUTH CAMP 20-10! x)
thurs [31st] : new year's eve, prolly having some countdown stuff? unsure.
monday [3rd jan]: WELL HELLO HELLO, ITS THE START OF HECTIC STREAMING SEC 2! -faints-
LOOK. JUST LOOK. how am i gonna find time to go out and meet yunman and hazel and my close BiCEP friends / meet Xinjie? or how on earth am i even going to find time to do my creative arts chinese portfolio, OR EVEN COMPLETE MY HOMEWORK? i have absolutely no idea. maybe bring to Vietnam? right. like i would bother doing them. seriously. i think my parents are quite crazy. last year, our plan was to go to Europe or i forgot where, and suddenly, we decided to go to TURKEY. and this year, it was like. NO PLANS. then suddenly, FIND TICKETS FOR TAIWAN NOW, NEED BY TONIGHT. and then at night, NO LETS GO TO VIETNAM. weird changes, weird decisions, and even weirder places.
turkey turned out reallllly terrrrrific :D
hopefully vietnam would be the same~ x) just gonna walk ard city for 1 day and spend the rest of the days in some beach resort (:
anyway yeah so i'm going crazy. i'm running out of time.
HOWWW. DDD: okay this's seriously been a long long post. but at least this wasnt an emo post. so smile for me :D
THIS. IS.. EHH. A DILEMA POST. I SERIOUSLY NEED HELP WITH TIME MANAGEMENT. God PLEASE GIVE ME TIME MANAGEMENT TY.
today yoghurt was away when i was online, when i signed out fr my phone yoghurt updated its fb.
maybe we really aren't fated. hazel suggested i should ask mummy whether should tell or not.
im really not scared to tell. only afraid of response. yup. see how first. maybe i'll come up with a decision by 31st Dec 2010, since its after something. yeah.
shall go and sleep. im kinda disappointed cus i missed 11.11 pm ): but i caught 11:11am. do these wishes really come true? im unsure. but anyways, i'm always wishing for one thing.. YOGHURT! xP
