Tuesday, November 2, 2010 | 11/02/2010 11:23:00 PM | 0 comments
but before i scream i shall go back to the superb superb Sunday.
Sunday in church was really nice (:
although i felt quite bad over.... but yeah.
anyway. its like uh. what happened O.O
oh yes
worship was okay.
sermon was okay.
during teabreak i was with Angel so felt okay too..
she didnt go sunday school so i went alone :X
met Kelvin and Yu Jia at the stairs there so they let me go up with them and we kinda talked on the way up th 4th floor x) which is good cus walking up alone 4 levels kinda spook me out :X
then at the door there dam funny/retarded [me].
like i wanted to go in, then yujia was right beside me.
so we wanted to let each other go in first.
in the end both of us wanted to go in together and kinda bumped into each other.
then we stopped and start laughing.
then i ended up going in first after like idk how many times.
dam retarded right me >.> okay nevermind.
sunday school was meaningful + fun :D
Chen En
and Denise lao shi didnt come so Kelvin lead our group (:
TBH, i DUN REALLY LIKE~~ some people in our group cus of their attitude.
shant name their names here.
but its really stupid and annoying.
like you go about saying how PERFECT you are and NO NEED TO CHANGE ANYTHING
then next minute when someone else's talking you flip open yr phone and start texting people?
HELLO? wasnt that AGAINST the rules? and WHERE'S YOUR FREAKING BASIC COURTESY?
next, i think the person can seriously work on her/his/its HUMILITY. zzzz >.>
okay fine i know that no one's perfect and everyone has her/his/its own flaws.
nevermind. i must learn to BAO RONG others more. yeahh .COMPASSION. ugh. so hard. nehmind. MUST TRY!
but it was still quite okay overall.
cause of the really strong meaning behind th lesson, discussion was okay too just that i ALWAYS say really stupid and yeah stupid stuff and make a HUGEEEE fool out of myself. okay basically its just the rest ignoring me but yeah. i feel dam stupid. nevermind.
THEN. its like ytd we were doing end prayer in our own groups.
so its like. Kelvin went to pinpoint me >.> and make me do ending prayer
my reaction was like really stupid again i guess so my grp was like giggling -.O
it was my FIRST time doing ending prayer~~~ so freaked out >.<
like first time we pray for person beside you/wtv then i have to end everything.
so i was like super worried when to start and pray what and all that.
and i was like "hurh hurh hurh idk help me!! "
then yujia was TRYING to tell me... and i SORTA got it but i just felt like telling Kelvin " why dun just let Yujia lead then =.=" THEN i decided not to be rude cus after all, Kelvin's a LAO SHI (:3 and yeah its just rude so i continued.
that was Sunday School.
after Sunday School Chen En JIEJIE was trying to convince me to go for Youth Camp
and Kelvin + Angie lao shi were trying to convince me to go ISTANA with them this Friday cause open house or dk what.
and its like th last few of us as usual walking lor.
and i was MAINLY talking to Chen En jiejie cause i REALLY CANNOT DECIDE -faint-
and i think i wun go this Friday lah, although i felt dam comforted cause they invited me for th outing too ^^ but i dun wan go ALONE~~ seeeeee right =.= i'm such a stupid person. nevermind.
SOOO.
Chen En jiejie was trying to convince me.
and i was like telling her i dun wanna go cause i'm not very familiar and i dun wan history of last church camp to reoccur if i meet someone that .. i cant really get along well with lah.
and im not even sure if pam will go and my sister is most prolly not going seeing her attitude now towards church..
and she was like "your world dun only revolve around yr sister and pam! you can go and make more friends! "
so i told her ... .. ...
and she say so loud "who say you dun have friend? i not friend meh? [but yeah she isnt going so i kinda rebutted that] see Yu Jia going and he part of the team, he is your friend! [i almost fainted of embarrassment] then see Hui Han over there! Hui Han, you're going for camp right? [HH stares and nods, by th time we alr walk past]" i almost died of embarrassment.
but yeah THANK YOU SO MUCH CHEN EN JIEJIE FOR HELPING ME FIND "FRIENDS" :D
and i was like " Hi Yu Jia my friend! -stupid grins- " when she said he was my friend and he said he was my friend!
see how retarded this person over here is >.> yeah im dumb~~~
so yeah.
and then mummy bought me 2 bookmarks from Mei Qi lao shi to SUPPORT her 8)
really really cute and nice!! :D
and i spoke to my Gan Ma afterwards.
she says she wants to see my hypocount records and practice her scolding skills
im not sure if she's serious -spooked out-
zzz so scary :X
i think nxt week just tell her i forgot to bring :X
and she wants to bring me out for lunch/dinner :P
kekekekeke ^^
on Saturday before we went for cell, my and dad/mum/ben went to her house for dinner! :D
but yuxun wasn't at home so it was like 8 of us..
and i helped to take rice! :D
but i kinda screwed that cause i took the rice in the bowls instead of plates and my ganma + yujia + yushao + me had to help everyone turn the rice over on the plates :X
SEE I ALWAYS MAKE A FOOL OF MYSELF AND BE ULTRA STUPID AT SOME REALLY STUPID AND EMBARRASSING TIMES. D< -bangs head on wall-
and when i was eating i heard something really funny and then i didnt laugh but my soup from the tofu spongey thing kinda squooshed out.
IM SUCH A MESSY EATER D<
so yes i'm quite happy cus i spent time with my ganma :D hehehehe ^^
yupyup so back to Sunday.
i went out afterwards and bought You're/He's [the cover says its a He's] Beautiful
ep 1/2 is really nice :D i've watched 2 eps~~ today have band so couldnt watch :X
tmr shall continue!
okay im done with my Sunday.
it was really nice (: i felt so home at church again (:
but YES life isnt a bed of roses.
mine isnt.
NOTHING can be OKAY for ONE DAY.
or a FEW DAYS . ugh
like now that my OVERALL [not EOY my EOY was badly screwed okay] results seem QUITE stabilized and my church is seeming more and more homely, i kinda screw up other areas!
LIKE. my health. -BOOOO (N)-
my friends in other areas? [e.g. idk. not many chances to talk to all my OTHER gd friends cause they all seem so busy :/ ]
family relation?
zzzzzzzz. I JUST CANT NOT SCREW UP ONE THING.
there's something seriously wrong with me.
ANYWAYS. i realised that my Sunday was really nice thanks to a few main nice/funny/uh. cool/awesome friends that made my day! (:
people are Chen En jiejie :D Kelvin (: Angie lao shi (: Yu Jia (: Gan Ma (: some other people who were really nice to me in church~ (:
yes.
i shall just thank them.
and not think about the sad things today.
but today was also quite nice.
i decided to join Odyssey of the Mind with Jie Min, Zi Jun, Zhi Xin, Rachael, Joan and Xin Ye..
cant decide bout Creative Arts.
might join Lit. Ment. nxt year depending on schedule.
cant decide if continuing jap/ math olympiad.
heard some stuff bout academics but unsure whether true or not.
BSP Scholarship worry like crazy cus only 20+ people can get it.
zzzzz i will die of worry,
so i shall stop worrying and going crazy over the puniest things.
we have OM audition tmr. i think its one of the fastest ones -faint-
but yeah, hope i can ACHIEVE something and STOP SCREWING UP EVERYTHING D<
really feel like slapping myself sometimes.
i'm such a loser who cannot resist temptation.
so scared of everything -kinda- and always get nian-ed by parents cause no guts >.>
and then such a failure. zzzzz.
nevermind.
i shant be emo now.
i really want to scream.
but i'm tired already.
mentally, physically, spiritually.
my first day in main band seemed quite okay.
a few blunders but managed to get through without being pointed out mistakes or whatsoever.
I HAVE AN AUDITION FOR SYF NXT YR @ THIS END OF THE MONTH.
have to play Perseus/ Flight of the Piasa.
SO FREAKED OUTTT ZZZZ HELP ME FANGYI /ASHLEY~~~'
and Ashley seems to like my phone very much idk why she does ~.~
so okay.
i must plan my time well this month.
hope can finish all holiday hw SOON.
and can go and play.
and finish all the preparation well enough for the trip to M'sia on 27-28 Nov [its been confirmed]
and finish the montages for 17 Nov (:
I CANT BELIEVE WE HAVE DECEMBER HOLIDAY HOMEWORK + ASSIGNMENTS TO BE HANDED IN TO OUR SEC 2 TEACHERS.
but yeah, if dun do hw will really die of boredom + lose skills and momentum.
well, we're NYGH. what can i say :/
POOF. MUST MUG FOR NEXT YEAR CAUSE NEXT YR HAVE STREAMING!!
AND BSP ELECTION.
GOSH I WAN MY BSP SCHOLARSHIPPPP -screams-
i think i will really go crazy if i cant get my BSP Scholarship.
but its so hard to reach ):
God please help me~~~~~~
yeah.
missing my BFFs a lot now ):
Hazel, Yunman and Xinjie. ):
someone else.
my sister is losing her momentum for O's.
i need her to PUSH ON,
i think many others should be the same..
that's usually the effects of PEERS.
THEREFORE..
TO ALL SEC 4 O's:
PUSH ON AND HANG IN THERE~~
DUN EVER DARE TO GIVE UP NOW AND DUN STUDY OR HAVE THOUGHTS OF FAILING.
I WILL SHOOT BULLET AT YOU.
no i wun.
BUT YES BETTER STAY ON TRACK AND MOVE ON!!
KEEP THE MOMENTUM GOING~~
yup.
that's about it.
feel quite nice after saying a few feelings out (:
oh yes, for DISC i'm S.. kekekke..
found out more about myself and found some points really valid.
the Fear of S-es are: loss of security.
i guess in many ways its a HUGE yes. to those who know/understand me really well.
OH WELLS.
byeee.
i feel like shooting a few people off to space cause the person is really getting on my nerves and i'm trying hard NOT to flip with them. nevermind. UGH.
tomorrow's Sentosa level outing!
our activities for post-exam have been quite boring /stupid.
we got FIRST AID TRAINING for one day which let us learn how to WRAP BANDAGES for our FRIENDS and LEARN FIRST AID, and just now we did LINE DANCING.
so fun. hurh.
>.>
tmr hopefully better? ^^ i hope so~~~
wanna have fun tmr~~ and let my hair LOOOSE :D
havent really been able to relax after EOYs cause really worried bout many things!
ahh, God will keep me safe..
and happy.
and healthy.
i hope and i pray!
all the best to me + my team of 6 for our OM audition tmr~~
