Monday, October 25, 2010 | 10/25/2010 11:39:00 PM | 0 comments
SIGH.
dread going to school tmr ):
cus of the -gulps- results =sobs=
and something else.
more like someone else.
sigh.
yun man ):
hazel )':
NOT THAT I WANT TO BE OVERSENSITIVE OVER THAT ONE FREAKING POST.
but i think since last year already like tht ):
just tht only recently then started noticing and today then have impact ):
howwwww.
then you both still go and tell me what hidden message lalacrap just now ):
sigh.
TEACH ME HOW TO HVE MEMORY LOSS ):
i really should give up already. holding on so long also no use.
not like i'm going to take any action.
sigh.
ONE YEAR.
okay ALMOST ONE YEAR.
i must let go.
must must must must must.
):
-force self to stop thinking about the THING/ONE-
AIYSH lets talk about my results tmr.
since ytd i've been hearing screams in my own brain tht i DO NOT WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW! D<
sigh ):
i already prepared my own coffin ):
its the paper cardboard one with cloth [im gonna choose purple cloth] in the LA Compre passage one.
yes that coffin. ):
sigh.
i dun want to get not good results and good results, like halfway through.
make me feel so horrible that i do 100000000 times worser than others.
and at the same time i cant even complain if not other people will be like "i get worse okay dun complain"
aiysh most prob i'll be th one getting lowest ):
better prepare 5 packets of Kleenex.
and my coffin.
tmr must meet Mrs Ho at 6.15 cus she sending her 3 children to Sengkang first before we go school.
will be so dead beat cus i usually WAKE UP at 6.15 zz(-.-)zz
i tell yunman and mummy to prepare handphone
and must listen to me cry tmr ):
feel so sad now ):
over these two things ):
i cant go to sleep ):
sigh.
i dun want to give up .. how i wish u really don't have ... ... on anybody and that i was really just oversensitive.
but of allllllllll wishes why did u just comment on ... only, ):
WHY and WHAT and WHO ARE YOU SO THAT U AFFECT MY LIFE AND MOOD SO GREATLY! D:
ASDFGHJKL how i wish i could just suffer a concussion now D:
im dam worried bout tmr.
life isn't a bed of roses.
these few days seem to have been going too well..
dun tell me tmr will really be an awful day ...... ):
at 11.11pm today, i caught the wish, which was to make two wishes which would come true, and they were:
1. PLEASE dun disappoint me ): or at least, PLEASE let me forget you before you disappoint me and like someone else ):
2. PLEASE let my results be really really really okay..like.. passable.. 70% ? or even 60/65% would be goood.. pleaseeeee.. ):
sigh, i think at this rate i wun be able to sleep whole night and all my hair will drop already cus of my frustration.
ugh why must things be so complicated at night ):
sigh. ):
"Love is giving someone the power to destroy you, but trusting them not to" one of my fav quotes on Twitter.... SIGH.
trivial 1:
doesnt mean im talking to you now means you can start crapping and giving all kinds of rubbish to me which make no sense at all.
trivial 2:
what was my mistake, to have let all these go on for so long, or to have thought too highly of myself, OR to have not thought earlier that you would hv a ___ too?
trivial 3:
trusting you a second time, and u breaking th second trust i have for you, it really just shows me how stupid i am in life. real real real real stupid.
trivial 4:
i realised today, someone like me, don't have the right to go and like someone. who was i ever kidding? ): myself probably.
