Thursday, September 16, 2010 | 9/16/2010 07:26:00 PM | 0 comments
{yeah, dun do anything that u dun mean, cause i will really be so stupid to keep trusting and believing. and end up getting myself hurt. }
[p.s. this was supposed to be uploaded ytd :X ]
wooooooooooooooow.
just after ytd, today another huge wave.
its quite huge to me, it decided my 4 yrs life in ny.
i'm really surprised i was able to take it okay.
one wave after another.
一波未平一浪起~~~
TBH, i'm quite disappointed.
i thought i was gonna cry, but thank God i didnt.
who knows, maybe after this year i will fail my EOY and say bye to ny already, so who cares.
i feel sad also no use.
it was expected.
i knew i wasnt gonna get in.
now i really nvr.
i think my whole ny life will be disastrous.
after this yr, my sec4 seniors leave,
then nxt yr, my cute seniors and dear laolaorenjia will leave.
then the following yr, my 2 laorenjias will leave.
such a long path to go.
i really dk what's ahead.
i really dk what God's doing.
i just hope He is really seeing what is happening to my life now, feeling pain with me, and MOST IMPORTANTLY, going to lead me through all these shyt + return me my old lifestyle.
and yeah, for the real world and reality to stop torturing me.
went to hospital today.
dk how to tell everyone "i actually dun give a damn about my life anymore, just let me go rot"
i just pray tht everything will be over soon,
i can find motivation and someone who cares,
and dddd
