Friday, July 16, 2010 | 7/16/2010 12:01:00 AM | 0 comments
it was awesome (=
afterwards charmaine's mummy sent me home. <3
then i watched tele until 10pm.
and i practiced piano until 11.
then i went to bath.
nowadays i'm playing like shorter and shorter already.
1 HOUR U KNOW.
for my grade AND taking exam in 1 month's time, I ONLY PRACTICE ONE HOUR A DAY?
definitely NOT enough.
and know what? i can tell.
cause i'm starting to play all my running notes wrongly.
and i have to keep restarting .
and i get frustrated.
POOOOH lah.
i'm so freaking disappointed with myself.
is it so hard for me to even make some time for my piano?
i definitely dun wanna get as lousy as my grade 7 result anymore.
it was just A PASS by a few marks.
i seriously dunno whats wrong with me.
maybe everything that's happening now has changed me. so much.
sigh.
anyways, i really wanna watch despicable me and eclipse.
just that i got no one to watch with, cause everyone's too busy for me..
i miss yun man so much, but she's so busy :'C
what friends am i left with? that actually understand and care?
hazel, cjj and kathy.. hazel and cjj understand... kathy cares and cheers me up... ♥
katherine and charmaine are the ones in 109 who keep me alive. ♥
in church? i'm air, get it? (=
band? i'm guessing my seniors must hate me a lot.
with all that's happening now, i dun even have a chance to stop to breathe, neither does everyone.
no more.. no more.. that's what happens when one grows up..
or maybe its only me.. i become invisible..
can someone just let me KNOW or FEEL that i EXIST?
i feel so invisible, like air.
i dunnid anything. i just want a simple hi? a tag on my blog?
i dunno what else i have to give, cause i have already given everything i have.
i'm left with nothing now.
except a shattered heart , tired soul and a useless life.
what else do you all want?
it's amazing what you can hide, just by putting on a smile.
-Believe in Me, Demi Lovato.
