Tuesday, June 8, 2010 | 6/08/2010 07:07:00 PM | 0 comments
had band today.
went out with lynette, sung jin and jaimelynne [ still trying to learn how to spell her name]
had Macs for lunch and went to watch Maraduke [ ? my short term memory's getting worser cause th movie ended like at 4+ and i forgot the name alr )=]
so i came home and was smsing yunman mainly.
she knows everything now, including the latest.
she's th first person to have the latest updates, which means currently she's the most trusted person for me.
i'm gonna miss her tons and tons whn im gone . sigh.
so yeahs, we chatted a lot of things.
and then now im home and have to finish my math remedial work AT LEAST by today and probably more math stuff AND AND AND update records for tomorrow see doctor . again. im so sick of seeing doctors. wads the point whn i cant _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _?
i really want my health back . )= why is this world so cruel?
recently someone told me something which i feel vry comforted and hav to thank th person
" eh woman when you're wearing a fake smile, i find that you look better crying yr eyes out than when you're smiling this fake and untrue smile. "
hey, i know you're not good w yr words and yeah, i think that applies to people of yr population. but thanks, that made me smile.
another thing i want to tell a close person but hope sincerely with crossed fingers i wun hurt the person's feelings or upset the person:
i cant explain to you how much envy and admiration i have for you, you're really so lucky. i treat you like a best friend, but i think you only treat me as a friend, probably even lesser than th othr g_y friends you have. i noe about yr other secret invitation, wadya expect, one of those invited's my bff, and clearly i wasnt invited. i mean, its yrs, i cant say anything, but nevertheless i felt so dejected and upset, probably cause like the whole wide world knows, im a vry sensitive person. hm.the feelings was just something i wanna record that i hope you wun take to heart whn u read or wad. but yeah, i already know. so anyways, hope u have a great time with them, and i really hope while i'm still around, i can still feel that you treat me as a friend and that i can treat u as my best friend still..
as everyone can see, im like quite down now. truth is, i cant find any true reasons to smile. even if i smile real, they last at most a few minutes. its like, when your whole life is in deep shit , and im talking about whole lifetime, sleep is like a few minutes of escaping reality and life. i just really hope things will change for the better. i'm tired and falling down from all these. i cant really handle much anymore. i keep hoping thr will be people who care amd will comfort me and encourage me, but so far, there are so pathetic few. whats the point of being popular with th crowd when in fact u have really few people who care? nevermind. its not the time for such talks. i dun have much time left to crap so much. cause yunman isn't a crab. xD [c] soh yunman'2010 (:
anyways, there are some people i really want to talk to ,and if i ever tell you " it feels great talking to you again " i really mean it from the bottom of my heart, cause like i said b4, i dun have much time left to crap. so yeah, wun say here, cause i've got a hundred and a million things to do while i'm still here RIGHT NOW , but i hope i can get the chance to talk to people soon. be it people i used to dislike or what, i hope i hv the chance to chat with some people and change some things..
lastly wan say sth to a someone who i wun expect to read my blog at all, but this's just trivial matter.
真的长大了哦，现在看到你已经有喜欢的对象，也能了解很多人喜欢别人的心情.看到你时，也不看见你整天和我吵吵闹闹的，虽然还是会对彼此顶嘴，现在我感觉的却是没带毒在函的话，所以，真的好想告诉你，你真的长大了，成熟了，这样告诉你这些话，不代表我喜欢你，而是代表我认识这几年，那和我经过开心和不愉快，关心和顶嘴，这一切的一切的那位好朋友，好像长大，回到我那年能够依靠的人了，我还在时，好想能和你变友好，和你把一切不愉快一起忘了，做回我的好朋友。（：
