Monday, May 31, 2010 | 5/31/2010 11:42:00 PM | 0 comments
the happy, sweet moments... they turned gray. and disappeared.
just like that. POOOF. gone.
blephs.
im prepared to phail tmr.
like just now mom tried to help me 恶补.
she gave up after like , 3 chapters.
hehheh xD
im left to die on my own tmr.
i read less than HALF of th notes i was given .__.
i think tht weird liowwww will faint whn she sees my result.
or maybe th sch management will KAH-CHANG her when they see our results. xD
but i think i will be th only one failing, cause so many of thm are geniuses.
i think joyce and kathy and shiyao and natalie and qian shan and ETC will get gold or wad medals.
KANGHUI and BEJU too, all of them are like GE standard O.O
okay nevermind.
feel quite sad.
but nt about SMO.
had a horrid headache just now.
maybe thats why affect my mood.
SHEEEEEESH, tonight wun be able to sleep well again.
:/
nehmind, i talk to God.
cause i have no one else to talk to.
i feel like i have lost the whole world.
or the world has decided i'm too extra and abandoned me.
in any cases, i'm left with totally nothing, but only God.
and maybe my pathetic lil results that might just cheer me up every so often,
and make me feel like crying whn i disappoint myself every othr time.
i just really feel so unwanted and unneeded.
don't say my "FRIENDS".
even my FAMILY.
these few days, i've been working like what, everyone's maid.
i've been literally DOING HOUSEHOLD FREAKING CHORES for like half of the time i'm awake for the past few days.
and no one appreciates anything, not even a thank you.
sometimes, or most of the times, i feel so.. .. .. unimportant.
or maybe its not just the feeling. i AM unimportant.
heh xD
i can't stop thinkin how the world would be a better place without just a fat ugly person like me existing.
nicer view w/o a fatso blocking yr view,
save money on medical costs and my crazy demands,
no one to ruin yr mood or spoil yr mood cause she emo,
or no one to cause nth but trouble for you.
i think it wud be an advantage to everyone if i'm not around anymore, forever.
hm....
maybe.....
(=
okay nevermind i'm mad.
i shall make one of my life goals TO MAKE THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE
by making myself cease to exist.
i cant think of a single person who might mourn for a bit.
maybe my parents, for a few days?
hahaha.
this is how the world wants to change me again.
this is what everyone wants me to do again.
it will be like DUE TO POPULAR DEMANDS, blablablabla is back.
just tht it isnt POPULAR DEMANDS.
it is FORCE. UNPOPULAR FORCE.
haha, i feel so damn freaking pathetic,
but so what?
who cares?
me? piglets?
hahahahaha, ROFL xD
no one does.
no one.
things don't go AROUND.
i comforted, was there for people who needed me.
Now, where are you guys when i need you all?
or maybe,
there isn't even anyone.
and im quite sure, its not a MAYBE...
