aiya. xian. facebook lag. alibaba.
 today's dance lessons were funny.
like.
we danced to 青花瓷 instead of the normal warm-up cd. cuz tht cd officially passed away :x
thn did the 下腰s. kneel and go down me and nichapat MIAN QIANG can, but thn rite, for the stand and learn backwards one, nichapat can i cannot. SOMEMORE IS WITH TH HELP OF HUILING AND HANLU.
yeah cuz u're suppose to like team up in 3s and two ppl hold hands and u lean on their hands and go down. at first i could go down. like almost touch ground thn i suddenly couldnt find th ground and panicked.
blaphs.
nevermind.
thn we did th i dk wad. we hold th bar and do 小跳 and all th weirdest things.
and dance tchr was telling us how "优雅" we must be, and how we shd compare ourselves to all those whose schools no dance/wushu lessons -.-
cuz we more fit physically and thn dk wad dk wad dk wad lah.
tht was like th only interesting part of th day i think.
.oh i did BRP science with meredith in library, finally done, happy ((: cuz its done. and for some othr reasons aso (:
thn took section photo with ashley and fang yi <3
thn "pey guey" called and said i missed appt for th installing device thing
.i forgot wad tht device is called.
anyways its supposed to measure my hypocount 24/7 for 3 days.
so chim. good. not meant for anyone to noe
.i will look even fatter than i already so freakingly am.
anyways i gotta go back nxt freaking friday.
thn went home with meredith. took 154 to paya lebar.
TRAFFIC JAM for 20mins. so alibaba. :/
yah and i came home and had piano and all tht.
okay. dun feel like goin on and on about my schedule.
sayonara. oh rite.
i am sick >.<
i have severe blocked/running nose. :/ and bad bad bad sorreeee throat. my throat itch like mad canssssss. and headaches which are most prob due to my lack of slp. D:


i was born in all th gd things.
u cant expect me to change so fast.
i nid time to adapt as well
i noe everything we have will soon be gone.
even so, does tht give u the rite to kip blabbering about all th crappiest things?
about all the TOUCHy things? rite in front of us?
u think u guys are th only one with extreme stress now?
how about us? how do we acct to ppl next time?
"oh blablablablablablablablablablablablablaa, and so we're alibbaba now."
i have problems and stress too okay.
and i have totally no one to talk to. i cant even communicate properly with u now.
no one wants to ask. or more like, they cant be bothered.
im like so lost, no direction, dk hu to talk to, dk hu to trust.
im really tired of having to put on a fake smile every single day.
i want to cry. i want to frown. thn ppl will say im SCARY, or FIERCE, or UNFRIENDLY.
i have to smile for so long every single day.
act so high tht ppl get pissed.
FOR WAD?
idk. im really so tired. tired. tired. tired.
i dun have enuf sleep, dun think u're th only one too.
u dun even care if im not feelin well.
aiya, this whole thing sucks. WHY MUST WE HAVE SUCH SHYT?
i hate life now. i totally lost my direction. and th thing is, i feel so alone.
im th most afraid of being alone.
but all my friends have chosen to abandon me at this point in my life.
every single one of u, i seriously cannot think of anyone who hasnt abandoned me yet,
cuz i cant even tell who's real and who's fake now.
what to do?
i seem so alive outside, thts my purpose in life, isnt it?
to be happy, so ppl will think im friendly, and not emo, nor scary or fierce.
to seem high, so my seniors have th right to get annoyed with me.
to seem in a gd mood, so EVERYBODY can dump their shit to me.
why is it tht whn u help othrs, u dun get th help in return?
wasnt tht wad i had known since young?
u render help, whn u nid help ppl give u help back.
why isnt anyone helping me?
im really dying inside.
i tell ppl im surviving.
im really dying. dying. dying.
breaking apart. and lost.
im not joking, but
what if i really DIE one day???
im really in so much pain now.
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aiya. xian. facebook lag. alibaba.
 today's dance lessons were funny.
like.
we danced to 青花瓷 instead of the normal warm-up cd. cuz tht cd officially passed away :x
thn did the 下腰s. kneel and go down me and nichapat MIAN QIANG can, but thn rite, for the stand and learn backwards one, nichapat can i cannot. SOMEMORE IS WITH TH HELP OF HUILING AND HANLU.
yeah cuz u're suppose to like team up in 3s and two ppl hold hands and u lean on their hands and go down. at first i could go down. like almost touch ground thn i suddenly couldnt find th ground and panicked.
blaphs.
nevermind.
thn we did th i dk wad. we hold th bar and do 小跳 and all th weirdest things.
and dance tchr was telling us how "优雅" we must be, and how we shd compare ourselves to all those whose schools no dance/wushu lessons -.-
cuz we more fit physically and thn dk wad dk wad dk wad lah.
tht was like th only interesting part of th day i think.
.oh i did BRP science with meredith in library, finally done, happy ((: cuz its done. and for some othr reasons aso (:
thn took section photo with ashley and fang yi <3
thn "pey guey" called and said i missed appt for th installing device thing
.i forgot wad tht device is called.
anyways its supposed to measure my hypocount 24/7 for 3 days.
so chim. good. not meant for anyone to noe
.i will look even fatter than i already so freakingly am.
anyways i gotta go back nxt freaking friday.
thn went home with meredith. took 154 to paya lebar.
TRAFFIC JAM for 20mins. so alibaba. :/
yah and i came home and had piano and all tht.
okay. dun feel like goin on and on about my schedule.
sayonara. oh rite.
i am sick >.<
i have severe blocked/running nose. :/ and bad bad bad sorreeee throat. my throat itch like mad canssssss. and headaches which are most prob due to my lack of slp. D:


i was born in all th gd things.
u cant expect me to change so fast.
i nid time to adapt as well
i noe everything we have will soon be gone.
even so, does tht give u the rite to kip blabbering about all th crappiest things?
about all the TOUCHy things? rite in front of us?
u think u guys are th only one with extreme stress now?
how about us? how do we acct to ppl next time?
"oh blablablablablablablablablablablablablaa, and so we're alibbaba now."
i have problems and stress too okay.
and i have totally no one to talk to. i cant even communicate properly with u now.
no one wants to ask. or more like, they cant be bothered.
im like so lost, no direction, dk hu to talk to, dk hu to trust.
im really tired of having to put on a fake smile every single day.
i want to cry. i want to frown. thn ppl will say im SCARY, or FIERCE, or UNFRIENDLY.
i have to smile for so long every single day.
act so high tht ppl get pissed.
FOR WAD?
idk. im really so tired. tired. tired. tired.
i dun have enuf sleep, dun think u're th only one too.
u dun even care if im not feelin well.
aiya, this whole thing sucks. WHY MUST WE HAVE SUCH SHYT?
i hate life now. i totally lost my direction. and th thing is, i feel so alone.
im th most afraid of being alone.
but all my friends have chosen to abandon me at this point in my life.
every single one of u, i seriously cannot think of anyone who hasnt abandoned me yet,
cuz i cant even tell who's real and who's fake now.
what to do?
i seem so alive outside, thts my purpose in life, isnt it?
to be happy, so ppl will think im friendly, and not emo, nor scary or fierce.
to seem high, so my seniors have th right to get annoyed with me.
to seem in a gd mood, so EVERYBODY can dump their shit to me.
why is it tht whn u help othrs, u dun get th help in return?
wasnt tht wad i had known since young?
u render help, whn u nid help ppl give u help back.
why isnt anyone helping me?
im really dying inside.
i tell ppl im surviving.
im really dying. dying. dying.
breaking apart. and lost.
im not joking, but
what if i really DIE one day???
im really in so much pain now.
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