Monday, February 22, 2010 | 2/22/2010 10:56:00 PM | 0 comments
today sucked.like shyt.
nevermind.
im just pissed at people.
band run --> got abandoned by my SL cause like 95% she hates me or sth.
LA was so high. yeah. but it didnt last long.
than chinese.
recess was okay. at least i didnt get abandoned during recess.
wenxi abandoned me afterwards.
was pissed at someone for being so rude to me.
than i told wenxi about something.
which i only told one person before.
somehow, when u finally tell someone a very very deep secret, telling someone else wun seem so bad anymore.
i just told wenxi cuz i was so pissed.
than she had no reaction othr than the fact tht she wanted to find out who the person i was talking about was.
so she abandoned me.
had science. practically xianed
went for history. today's history was supposed to be fun and all, but i had no mood.
camp briefing was okay.
took 3rd lang bus w hazel to ghimmoh.
crammed last minute.
came home super tired.
and hungry.
[yeah im super fat and i still wanna eat whole day-.-]
but th thing is the only things i had today were : one chocolate roll for BF, one burger at 10.45. thats all.
so im super fat . i nid more food. so i eat more. and i grow fatter.
ta-da.
i ate dinner.
studied for math quiz.
did homework.
and now im here.
yeah, sorta went blog hopping justnow.
but i was really pissed w someone. agn.
i really hate tht person so much.
oh wells.
im just gonna be that idiotic fat dumb pig who is so bad she hates people and is always abandoned.
im not wanted anywhere.
never anywhere.
yeah. no one even talk to me at all.
its okay.
everything will just keep going deeper.
inside.
once the things have been buried,
stop trying to dig them up. i nid courage to be able to dig painful memories up.
and im a coward. call me wadeva u want.
whn u nid someone to tell things to, thr isnt anyone.
whn u're alr on the verge, people ASK/BEG u to tell them, they're just gonna ruin u more.
how can they expect someone so hurt and wounded already, to reopen the wound just to dig some left-behind crap that they want for no reason?
how shyt.
im just totally lost. and abandoned.
dk wads in front anymore. i can no longer do my work on my own, give my tchrs their 75% attention.
im just being stupid.
but who can i be sad to? myself.
yeah, wadever.
can u stop stealing whatever rightfully belongs to me? stop being so irritating. stop being so crappish. stop being so "im-so-popular" when u're not. at all. u tried to talk to him. he laughed. u were happy. have u ever seen him laugh SERIOUSLY? no. he was just being fake. u miss him? for not replying yr sms-es or wadever? u care about him so much? well. give up bahs. u already have so many crap people to go after. he doesnt like u. he doesnt. and i noe im not a very smart person, nor fit to be in NYGH at all or anything. but i beat u by at least 50points in PSLE, and based on that fact, i wanna tell u something :
DONT THINK U CAN OUTWIT ME AT ALL. DONT THINK JUST BECAUSE U DENY I WUN NOE. I NOE THAT U LIKE HIM A LOT A LOT AND A LOT. U DUN LIKE THAT IDIOT AT ALL. ITS JUST A PRETENSE. AND. BASED ON MY EXPERIENCE, HE DOESNT HAVE ANY INTEREST FOR U, NOT AT ALL. all the others srsly dislike u too. so stop trying to ACT or THINK that u're popular.
i wish the person whom i used to talk to, chat with until 2am+ was still in Singapore. I miss her so much. I really do. She was the one whom i trusted with all my secrets. she just left. for 3 yrs. like that. she's gonna be so busy. no time anymore for me. and im just abandoned again. someone tell me, how do i survive? everyone has sources to vent out everything. some even can vent on their blogs. people think im venting this way. but my life's srsly just too complicated. its not this shallow. i dun have any more venting source. i have to put on laughters, smiles, and hyperness every single day.im so sick and tired of all these.
abandoned dogs, whn brot to SPCA, they at least can RIP. get jabbed and fade silently and peacefully. they dont have to suffer anymore. how about me? why cant i just be jabbed and fade silently and peacefully away too?
