Wednesday, February 3, 2010 | 2/03/2010 11:40:00 PM | 0 comments
ohoh.today was quite okay.
started w CLC. i cant believe it.
i thot i LI-TI for compo.
in th end i got like. ok i wun say how much i got cuz its like quite low still, but i like got called up to read my compo.
so it was like.
-aunty lucy's SOOOOO EMBARRASSING!!! -flaps hands frantically- -
haha. srsly
i could feel my face burning.
thn went back to seat tht time i was like : omg i think im having a fever cuz my face's so hot.
huiling was like : =.= no lah...
aftr tht had ICT.
quite boring -yawns-
reccess.
LAB.
this time 109 wasnt late!!! whoooots (= its MOTHR TERESA. . :/
hahas. i was laughing like mad cuz i was reminded of SOMETHING while doing my practical, so jayne had to do most of e job, and we had to redo a few times cuz we made lots of dumb and redundant mistakes.
aftr tht had math in lab, my com was spoilt agn so i went to th othr end, thn meredith aso so we were "partners" for the ace-learning. sorta partners. we had to find out like th mass and area of one sheet of recycled paper thn th price and all those complicated figures. but suuuper fun smmore in air-con. and we got to watch 2 videos about the paper recycling thing.
aftr math had BRP listened to mothr teresa crap alr we had to read this article on some crap about the difference in medical science for male and female. some parts were quite sick. some were interesting. anyways in th whole HYPER grp of 5 [ mer, nicha, ahma, huilin + moi] only me and mer were actually reading those things, thn nicha suuuper cute alr packed her bag and she and huiling were laying their heads on table waiting for dismissal. thn hanlu was juz like sitting thr doing nth, thn me and mer discussed some ans and bell rang. everyone so happy. hahaha (=
aftr tht went down canteen bot CHAWAMUSHI [yum =DDD] to eat. tht was my lunch. thn natalie bot a sandwich and sushi and sparkling apple. shiyao bot papaya and sushi. so funny. we kip losing each othr. but kip finding. at last left like 3 mins all of us chionged to do many things. thn aftr tht went inside th board room. FIFTY FOUR PPL. -faints- anw. me and nat and shiyao shared table. shiyao is suuuuuper smart. ++ HCL = 27_ NOT SAYING ;D. natalie does all her math work by herself and all tht, including those "Challenge Yourself!" questions at the back of worksheets, while ME here, either wait for my mama to teach me, or just anyhow doodle and anyhow write some lucky numbers in, which HARDLY but yea sometimes turn out to be correct .__. SEE geniuses rite? and i STATED reasons. im not like super smart thn go " omg she's so smart." and actually i got higher thn someone. i DONT do tht. so im happy :D
anw. i tell u guys. MATH OLYMPIAD in NYGH trained by NYGH teachers =FAILURE.
muz be th SMOPP OVERALL co-ordinator personally train thn good, cuz he's supposedly vry good in math. unfortunately, i had this impatient and not too fast tchr teaching us. i behind kip CATCHING NO BALL. so was suuuuper fustrated. natalie and shiyao understood most parts. mama's gonna go thru my SMOPP questions on sat. HAPPYEEE. i betta understand or die. NYGH EXPECTS. omg EXPECT. us to be able to PERFORM WELL for all the competitions they send us for. so crap rite. yea crap. CRABBBB. :///
went home ALONE aftr tht. )= shiyao and nat all cross bridge one..
anw i boarded bus thn noticed thn mingfwu and anson were on th same bus O.o so we chatted until reached mrt station. i mean, its like vry awkward for 2 guys and 1 girl who arent very like suuuper close friends to be tgt, so i purposely missed th train. thn went in. went home aftr tht. at kbg mrt almost goin down escalator suddenly heard an OI. natural reaction: turn ard. CHIA BING TIAN. omgosh. i was like " :O hi! " thn he was like "hi!!! " thn suddenly he read an sms and ran down th stairs. aftr tht i walked home alone. thn he sent me an sms explainin why he had to rush off. nt vry gd news thus shant share here. but anw. yea. reached home thn slack slack slacked.. finally started/finished chinese YUE DU LIAN XI. went for dinner. came back up. started revising geog. mom called me down. did math. math . math. found tht i knew how to do those questions cuz appeared in TNS challenging probs b4. so i was like diaoing thr, thn went "omg im such a genius" . but usually i see challenge yourself questions i dont even read, juz giv mama teach me. so today finished suupuer quick, came back up to do geog. TA_DA. done (=
yeah.gonna do NE and send hanlu quick. sayonara.
yea i no ya hate me now.
im really disappointed in u, like super.
why must u do this to me?
u want to end our 10 yr friendship ovr some piece of CRAP u've met for dk how many yrs?
SUIT YRSELF. i gave u so much leeway alr.
i really did. i gave in. i mixed with thm. but it really seems impossible.
youth camp was an example, i mixed w both of u, but both of u ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS :
1 - leave toilet w/o me
2- tell secrets w/o me
3- leave room w/o me
4- dont wait for me to jab or wadev.
5- leave EVERYWHR w/o me
6- leave ME out of EVERYTH
i tried so hard to blend in. u didnt even try.
and now u want to giv up our 10>yr friendship.
srsly, suit yrself. im just so so SO disappointed in u.
u hate me rite? i dont care. im gonna change a service or church soon.
whn xinwei leaves. i'll leave too. i wun stand being in a place whr everyone hates me.
i'll juz leave to make u satisfied. thn u can be with yr BFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFs w/o any BADDIE )= preventing u, right ;D im such a nice person.
i srsly feel so stressed. i didnt even have the mood to study for geog juz now. until mama taught me thn we were having our like paper convo. like passing notes while doing cuz i didnt want dad to no and he was rite in front of us. im so glad i can tell my mama things now, not like last time. she listen and give me advice, thn i finally was able to start on geog. but my mood was srsly so ruined. i have so many things to handle, i really cant cope. i have academic studies, 3rd lang [90> for jap for every exam if not punishment], band [2-3 times a week, go against band rules do extra rounds around school/drills], piano and theory exam [u all wanna try grade 6 theory and grade 8 piano? BE MY GUEST], church services [ppt, worship, etc] , math olympiad [wadthecrap]. now i still got so much friendship problems. this is really so crap. really really really. i have no one to talk to. the one who usually talks to me mayb under th influence of someone so dont want to speak to me aso.i really dont have anyone to tell anything to. but nvm. i juz bury everything inside. next time if i die or anything, these things die with me, and i wun burden anyone else with all these crap of mine. im just being SPOILT and BEACHY again. but i really will die. i will die of depression or sth. i really miss 2008-2009. b4 i became emo and all tht. life was srsly so enjoyable. i wun be able to take all these stress any longer. i really cant. i really dk how to. WHEN U DONT TALK, PPL TELL U THT THEY CANT HELP U UNLESS U SPEAK. WHN U SPEAK, PPL HATE U FOR WAD U SAY. THN? BURY EVERYTHING DEEP INSIDE, NEVER REVEAL THM EVA AGN. dont make me breakdown agn. srsly and PLEASE, im beggin u all, stop it. i really cant take it anymore.
