Thursday, February 25, 2010 | 2/25/2010 11:18:00 PM | 0 comments
didnt blog for one day. okay.
i hardly dont blog.
that shows how slack i am
and i always complain about my work
which proves that im just plain lazy and not hardworking, not really have a lot of work.
yeah.
i must make my blog private soon.
its getting to horrid.
and emo.
WADEVERRRRR.
the day started horrid.
i quarreled with my beloved mama ovr some FREAK tchr whom i hated like mad.
but she loved like mad.
had geog first period.
the. crap. tchr . didnt. come!
whooooooooo~~~
yeah. so we had MISS TANTINARAWAT to conduct our lesson.
a pity she never even conduct half of the lesson anothr relief tchr came.
ugh.
nicha rawwwwks. lawls ;D
thn th 4 of us behind were like "MISS TANTINARAWAT ZAO AN"
and huiling went to ask the whole class to QI[3] LI[4] to greet her.
thn had chinese speech training.
register 16-32 [yeah, my class ;D] drew a suuuper nice and cute card for wang lao shi
cuz last lesson w him.
went for break with wenxi.
hazel and dillys abandoned us to go up halfway. .__.
went for NAN[2] ZHONG[1] QUAN[2]
tchr was sorta pissed w us.
yea . anw aftr tht was math
we played a sorta "happy family" game.
hanlu's the MOTHER [ahma mahx ;D]
nicha's the FATHER [ahgong]
im the SISTER
and huiling's the BROTHER [xP]
we must teach each othr things based on the diff ws-es we received, and thn if whole FAMILY gets 8> for quiz, we add 1 point EACH to our INDIVIDUAL quiz. and we have a --> HAPPY FAMILY.
quite a lame game. but yeah, wadever.
stayed in class to do homework cuz wanted to come home and slack away.
and cuz i srsly think i had quite a bit of hw.
went to hall for Student Leaders' Investiture!!
AWEEEESOMEEEE
我♥南洋!!! :D
our principal showcased the video of the PRESIDENT HU JING TAO'S VISIT TO NYGH via the CHINA NEWS CHANNEL.
thts the most interesting thing and the thing i most proud of among ALLLLL the things she said.
ard 1+ went back to class.
tell u all lorhs.
the GUYS esp those from H_I and R_ were SO SO SO DAMN FREAKING NERD.
the shuai-er ones tht some of my classmates were freaking out ovr were from N_C, ACS_and _JI.
yeah. those boy-deprived/obsessed friends of mine..
th dancers were tryin to cheorograph the dance for talentime. so we musicianists were watching those ppl walk here walk thr and commenting on their uniform.
i was quite hyped about some of the chio-er uniforms since ours was all-white.
and mrs ang vry funny.
cuz zijun and co. wanted to go ask this bunch of guys wad their school was, then mrs ang was like "go lah go lah. i bet u all will chicken out"
and we were laughing like mad.
yeah anyways.
uhm.
i think if not wrong it was A_S_. yeah. the girls thr so nerd!! O.O
R_S aso. whoa-my-tian. cannot stand man. i srsly ♥ our student leaders TTM. THANK GOODNESS they're all good-looking and slim and pretty enuf. and SMARRRTTT.
kay shall stop showing off about THE TOP SECONDARY SCHOOL IN SINGAPORE.
ANYWAYS, WE'RE AWESOME ENUF. ;D
so went for band.
hyped all th way.
today i think i played like shyt for sectionals.
but my tchr thot i IMPROVED. whoa-my-tian. is thr sth wrong with him?
thn whn he left, me and ashley♥and fangyi♥ chatted until time was out.
we went inside band room. yeah. crapped a lot.
went home with ashley, sung jin and lynette.
ashley got off 2 stops b4 we reached newton.
sungjin left in the mrt b4 us @ city hall.
me and lynette left.
so i walked home aftrwards. with yixi whom i happened to bump into near mrt.
i reached home at 7pm. so freaking. late. D:
had dinner. started doing a bit of work.
until 10. thn came online. i srsly slack man.
aiyeeeee. ><
its like rgd some matters, i have some crap to say.
dont read cuz it'd just be a waste of yr precious time.
go and study and be gd gurl/guy isntead ;D
i shall purposely be MUHAHA evil and make things hard for people to read wads below.
i srsly have no time to go to another blog and crap all these. yeah.
but who am i to think that people would even BOTHER to READ all my crap? if they dont even have time for me? haha. im just a nobody. nevermind. i shant care at all then. that BO-CHAP attitude of mine that makes my character scuk.
guys always CLAIM they dont go for "physical looks"
all-the-crap. go fly kiteee. and a looong loooong one.
even if they srsly dont, the girls they crush on/ like are all slim and pretty.
cuz i noe the crushes of so many guys, i can srsly see tht pattern lohs.
i dun even noe why im crapping all these. i just feel like saying this. but bcuz of NO particular incident.
anyone who reads this shudnt get offended.
my studies are seriously dropping. i've suddenly lost interest in every single thing. yeah.
and im starting to scuk at things like bassoon and all the rest.
i bet th tchr wun let me participate in SYF next year.
and its like. idk. aftr today's SLI, i feel like becoming a leader.
but like i said. and like many many many many many people said, i dont have any leader qualities.
and im so immatured.
not possible.
besides. i have a feeling all my tchrs hate me. suddenly.
its either cuz my grades are dropping too badly, or im just too act-hype in class.
mrs a_g, cl_ud_ne t_n, mothr t_r_sa, ms t_n sh_ w_i.
oni Yang Lao Shi still vry nice. she call me BAO BEI.
but she's oni a co-form. she cant like boost me or anyth.
aiya forget it, i srsly have no idea wad im crapping abt.
anw ashley told me whn we become SL our job will be even more than our hw.
+ sec3 got streaming. and im already failing most of my subs at sec1. ah, imagine.
neverrrminddd. im just a scuky, idiotic, fat pig that will never be liked by anybody. not friends, not tchrs, not anyone else. yeah.
see my popularity in...
see my popularity in anywhere. its the same.
at least in class, ppl noe i exist thanks to my hyperness.
in bicep, ppl didnt even noe i existed. omyfreakinggosh.
my classmates seem to be starting to hate me cuz of my hyperness.
if not my damn scuk character. if not cuz im overweight by 3kg and the rest of my friends are all slim and pretty and smart, so they like them and not me anymore.
cuz they cant possibly hate me for good grades. i dont even have good grades.
and the same thing. i cant be bothered.
i was just sick 2 days ago. and today i had to scream at my bro at th top of my lungs. and my throat is burning pain now. i only saw him for 3hrs. im srsly so disappointed in him.
i hope i can just fade away. so that i can either make people HAPPY cuz the person they hate doesnt exist anymore, or, realise my existance. i guess ppl will be wishing the same thing as me, for the 1st reason.
no one even noes i exist. my BFFs are all so busy. and no one talks to me at all. its just a short and simple 15-min chat like "hello, how are u now?" "fine. bz with work" "okay. me aso so bz" "yeah."-blablabla signed out-
gosh. srsly. i have no one to talk to. how pathetic. wenxi so emo nowadays. hazel is always so busy going off to dkwhr.. i srsly have the urge to quit NYGH and go somewhere else.like overseas.
but i ♥ NYGH too much. see? self-contradictory. thts how i scuk. i just cant make decisions. thats why i always make mistakes. mistakes that either, make others misunderstand my meanings and cause ME to lose another good friend i can always chat with, cuz they hurt me unintentionally, or, becuz of ME freaking out on some ppl, cause THEM to feel pissed w me and stop talkin to me.
my bffs arent my bffs at all. none of them are. i feel so hurt. and disappointed. that they're all so busy to even give me like. 30 mins of their time? even 15mins seem so tight.
ppl kip disappointing me constantly.
i kip disappointing ppl constantly.
the one whom i shd be most disappointed in should be me.
for everything i scuk at.
for not being pretty nor slim.
for not having a goody girl character.
for not being to be able to excel in ANY SINGLE THING since i was 5.
for not being able to be a healthy girl.
for not being able to be well-liked by any tchrs, any friends of anybody.
why is it that some ppl dont have to do anything, still they get loved by everybody?
is it cause they're not overweight? is it cause they're so pretty and slim and rich?
is it because they're so nice and sweet and goody-gurls? is it because they's not permanently ill?
is it because they're smart and excel in everything?
i seriously hate my condition. cuz ppl hate me for having my condition. wad on earth did i ever do to inherit such an idiotic and stupid and painful and torturing condition? shyyyyyt like mad.
i really wanna cry. but who'll let me? u cry, people call u EMO, leave u alone.
i really wanna talk to someone. i wannna find someone whom i can trust so much i can tell anything and everything to tht person.
maybe, God is the ONLY person who i can turn to. no one else. mayb, in this world, there really isn't anything called Kinship, Friendship nor Relationships.
cause, all these SHIPS, like promises, aren't meant to last.
