Monday, December 28, 2009 | 12/28/2009 11:51:00 PM | 0 comments
BLEEEEPPPPHHHHHSSSSS.im srsly havin those kind of "gd day" "bad day" "gd day" thing.
ytd was a gd day and i was praying tht today would be good too.
UNfortunately, my prayer didnt come true.
bleh.
woke up between 11.30-12 [couldnt find my phone so didnt bothr checking time]
thn came online and starting fb-ing.
blablabla.
thr went th whole day.
evening went to gym w mom
i ran my 2.4 in 20 mins. O.O
cuz i was walking for like probably 1.6km.
and i ran for 0.8km only.
even if i ran for everything i doubt my time would decrease.
sighx.
i'll most prob be th fattest, heaviest, slowest, clumsiest, dumbest person in ny.
im srsly like so clumsy.
and easily frightened.
like im drinking water i can choke on my water whn th phone rings.
or like juz pouring water into my cup and spill water.
thts why i'll NEVER be successful in life.
i regret nt learning how to take buses/mrts whn i was young.
im srsly TOTALLY lost whn it comes to taking buses.
at least i still hav lil knowledge on mrts.
why does kbg hv to be so ULU..
th bus tht passes by at th bus stop outside my hse passes by every 20mins.
i dont even rmb how to take bus to TNS othr thn th changing at bedok int thing.
see im so useless and dumb rite.
cant even do such a simple thing such as take bus.
if angel was here at least i can try to PUUUUUUUUULLLLLLL her out w me.
or teach me.
now these stupid websites i cant even rely on thm.
stupid stupid stupid.
more like i cant rely on myself.
i've never in my life taken an mrt/bus ALONE to anywhr.
i dont care about anything BUT loneliness.
and nxt yr i'll hav to learn how to take bus and mrt and all tht.
bleeephhhhs.
i promised nt to emo on my blog.
i shall stop.
but even if i emo, no one will read.
my blog's so pathetic everyday at most 1 person tag.
i dont care who u are or wad u do lor, as long as u no my blog and u read my blog juz tag luh. i wun eat u up or kill u or think anything rite.
sigh.
原来思念可以这么痛苦，原来想念可以想到这么疯...
真的真的好想念你，想念大家。
2009年，你过几天就飞走了，时间怎么过得那么快？
我很亲的人一个一个离开我，我的安慰者们一个一个也走了。
我最要好的朋友们，嘴上说我是他们最要好的朋友们，行动上别人却才是他们最要好的朋友。
all yr display pictures have many ppl, it can be a grp, which i dont blame u for, but th one u claim as yr "gd friend", how many display pictures have u displayed tht are U with HER? and how many have U and I only? let me tell u th answer, my friend. NONE.
u wanna know tht day during rehearsal i told u i was only tired but my eyes were red, u said u thot i was crying.
YEAH i was crying. crying for wad? cuz i was so upset tht my BFF sat with so many ppl at many many rows behind me, and i only had one pathetic friend sitting right beside me with all th young children, and that BFF had to pull my one friend away from me to sit with her and her whole pack of friends behind me.
i was sitting ALONE with all th young kids.
u're my BFF, and u dont even know what im most afraid of?
thn whn we went to Annex Hall, u were juz playing w th kids and yr friends
yr grp of friends.
so perfect right?
without me.
yeah.
i'll leave one day.
leave all of u.
every single one .
i might die soon cuz of my health.
i could go into a coma.
i could juz leave singapore and go smwhr else.
i wun be back.
mayb thn, all of u will realise i EXIST.
or mayb , by leaving, i'll help and grant all yr wishes, and remove all th troubles i bring to everyone of u. all of u then, will feel so happy and glad w/o me, and wun even think of me.
EITHER WAY, leaving reality will do good for me.
and EVERYWAY, EVERYWHERE, im juz a pathetic soul with no friends. no TRUE friends.
