A bit disappointed, sad, bla. whatever.
Sunday, December 27, 2009 | 12/27/2009 01:32:00 AM | 0 comments
im quite disappointed.everyone, at least th girls, most of us made pacts to go NYGH togethr.
what happened?
i dont understand.
i dont regret going to NYGH.
i NEVER will.
im sorta glad, cuz thr wun be any more guys. i've had enuf of TNS guys. so im really glad actually, othr thn th HORRIBLE fact i juz learnt tis aftrnoon tht sm1 i cant really get along w is going to HCI. wdh.
freeaaakkkk.
i miss all my friends so much..
i really dont understand wads so good about rgs.
i miss yunman.
i miss pam.
esp.
cuz both of em, im lyk suuuper close w recently?
no quarrels, nth...
pam was great fun to be with during all th rehearsals/camp/performances.
yunman.. its just so nice and comfortable being with her, cuz she understand how i feel abt everybody going away from me
its so PATHETIC how almost th ENTIRE bicep girls who are ard 30+ wanted to go NYGH, and in th end only 14 girls from th ENTIRE TNS in NYGH.
none of u kept yr promise.
its really disappointing, but i dont blame u guys.
mayb u all will excel thr.
but i'll excel betta knowing i'll get to enjoy BiCEP lessons again from Sec3.
im srsly prayin to get into th same class as Hazel/Wenxi.
cuz both of em same marks most prob will enter same class.
i'll most prob end up in 1.1 or smth.
Kathy will end up in 1.12> cuz GEP.
so sad. ):
i juz feel so useless and disappointed.
why am i unable to convince thm to go into nygh?
even ERICA. she got pulled ovr.
im not tryin to declare war between NYGH/RGS or anyth.
its juz, really so disappointing.
and im lyk so stupidly known among all th stupid teachers of nygh.
if i make trouble thr im doomed. like literally doomed.
im like MATCH-MAKED w ppl.
mom wants me to MAKE FRIENDS with her ex-colleagues' nieces or children or wadev ppl.
DO I LOOK LIKE I GIVVE A DAMN.
no. i'lll NEVER car-pool with ANY of her friends or wad she calls thm.
or anything.
i rather wake up at 4am in th morning to take a bus/mrt or wadv shit transport thr is in Singapore all th way to NYGH thn car-pool w some TOTAL STRANGERS.
so pissed.
its anothr week b4 2009 officially ends.
i miss BiCEP so much.
Turkey.
Teachers.
TNS.
Christmas [eve].
EL service ppl.
i've really grown to like many many people like Annaliza, Clara, Charmaine, Joyce, Jingwen, Rachel, Debbie, etc.
althou we're not like very close they're juz suuper friendly and nice to me.
2ml wun seee thm most prob lerhs. no more rehearsals or performances or anyth. camp's not until nxt end of th yr. im not really anticipating seeing LL aka PF. and XinWei'll be gone. far away from us. )':
blephs.
misssssses ):
so many things.
wad am i going to doo....
God help me pls.... guide me thru all this chaos.
thru a totally new year, new environment, new people/faces,
help me thru all my 2009sickness,
sigh.
like th previous post, dont read below, cuz today's worse. more emo crap.
i juz cant NOT emo here.
see how much i suck yeah.
i suck in totally everything.
in studies.
i lose to 6J ppl.
in sports.
i cant even beat my own brother in like simple stuff such as arm wrestling.
in looks.
i no i shudn't criticise God, but whn those who are obv so much betta looking thn me say bad stuff bout thmselves i juz feel so bad.
in health.
my health isnt controlled at all i juz still continue worsening my condition instead of saving my life.
in weight.
ppl who are like UNDERWEIGHT call thmselves FAT. what am i?
i feeel so horrid.
angel <-- dad
ben <-- mom
me <-- ?
i guess i srsly miss ppl too much.
these few days kip having such thots.
ppl KEEP telling me " wha yr piano so good " ; " wha you look so pretty w makeup" ; "wha yr voice so nice" ; "wha u got so good results for PSLE" ; " u're not fat at all actually, blablabla"
all CRAP. LIES.
i TRY explaining tht im not THT good.
ppl juz kip saying i criticise God. blablabla.
if my piano's good, look at erica's or clara's or nicholas's or joyce's or charmaine's.
i look pretty w makeup, thn ppl like Pamela and Megan and etc?
my voice nice, thn how bout annaliza's or sam's voices?
if my results are good, how bout jingen's or nat's or joyce's or charlotte's?
if im not fat thn how bout nellie or charlotte?
u all see, ppl in church like th YU bros or th EL serv guys get along with those ppl?
why?
cuz they're so pro at EVERYTHING.
while u see th YU bros, we have cell grp and all tht crap, basically im juz invisible to thm.
ppl dont know their "behind-th-scenes" stuff.
even AUNTY DOR claims tht Nellie is MATURE.
yeah. im th most immature lousiest ugliest fattest stupidest jealous-est sucker in th entire world.
and everyone hates me.
P.S. sry for all th vulgarities/emo-ness.
